It was long before Mrs Lawless turned her face in his direction; when
she did he saw that her eyes were filled with a great hopelessness, and
something that resembled dread. Unconsciously she fingered the roses in
her lap, touching them with a nervous caressing hand.
"I am afraid," she said, and looked at him wistfully. "I have never
imagined anything like this... I thought I was going Home without ever
seeing his face again. I had reconciled myself to that. And now... It
ought not to be more difficult to part from the dead than to part
irrevocably from the living. But it is."
She looked down suddenly at the roses, and lifted them gently, and laid
them against her face.
"I brought them for him," she said simply.
"I think it would be wiser," he returned, "not to make up your mind to
misfortune. It is quite possible that when we arrive we shall find Mr
Lawless in perfect health. There are absolutely no grounds for
supposing otherwise."
"I have a feeling that all is not well," she answered quietly. "That
feeling was with me throughout the night; and in my sleep I heard him
call me... My own imagination! ... Yes, I know. He wouldn't ask for
me."
She turned her face away and gazed out of the window again.
"Do you think," she asked presently, after a further lengthy silence,
and in her tone and manner it was apparent how great was the effort it
cost her to touch upon the subject, "that she will be with him? ... that
woman?"
Colonel Grey sat up suddenly as though a bomb had been flung at him. He
had forgotten since his knowledge of Tottie's identity that this thing
had been an open scandal, and that she must know of it.
"Good Lord, no!" he answered. And added quickly: "There wasn't any
woman."
He moved down to her end of the compartment, and leaning forward took
both her hands and held them firmly.
"You haven't allowed that to come between you?" he asked gently.
The tears rose in her eyes.
"It didn't help," she whispered... "But you see--I am going to him in
spite of it."
"It was a cruel thing to let you believe that," he said, and dropped her
hands, and sat back against the cushions, watching her. "I'll tell you
the story as I heard it myself yesterday."
And he related to her unreservedly the history of Tottie and her
connection with Lawless in the recovery of the letters. When he had
finished he found that she was quietly weeping with her face hidden in
her gloveless hands.
He left her to herself and returning to his former seat sat stiffly
upright, staring out of the window with unseeing eyes beneath their
knitted brows. It would seem that those letters had more to answer for
than even he had supposed. He wondered whether, could he have foreseen
all that this enterprise would involve, he would have consented to its
undertaking.