"Don't worry. You have done no harm," she said. "If anyone could plead
for him it would be you, you kind, dear soul. You make me feel--" She
hesitated, and straightening herself stood slowly upright, looking
gravely into the lifted face,--"mean," she added, after a pause.
She clasped her hands behind her, and turning her back to the puzzled,
questioning, tear-swollen eyes that stared up at her in helpless
wonderment, gazed out upon the view. Through a break in the trees the
great square rock that is Table Mountain showed in the clear atmosphere
so surprisingly near that it seemed as though it formed a boundary to
the garden. The sunlight lay warmly on its rugged prominences leaving
the clefts and crannies in its grey sides cold and dark and secretive,
the lurking-places of mystery and shadows, hiding ever from the light
like the evil thoughts of a man's mind. Zoe Lawless gazed at the
mountain, looking blue in the brilliant sunshine, and her eyes were
clouded as the dark clefts in its sides. She was ashamed of the part
she had deliberately played, ashamed above all of having deceived this
woman who was her friend.
"I'm wondering what you are thinking of me," she said quickly. "And it
hurts. I care... so much. You tempt me to tell you things--things that
I keep double-locked in my heart--in order to justify myself."
She turned round suddenly, frowning, and tapped her foot impatiently on
the stone floor of the stoep.
"Merely to justify myself!" she repeated... "Was ever a more paltry
reason given than that? Shall I tell you, Kate? ... Shall I show you
the wound in my breast... the ugly, raw, unhealing wound that I am for
ever tearing open with my own hand? I would tell you what I would not
tell another human being sooner than you should think ill of me."
"If that is your only reason for giving me your confidence, there is no
need," the other answered. "It's just because I think so highly of you,
Zoe, that I feel the disappointment so keenly. But perhaps it's as well
that you don't care, because... in the event of..."
Here she broke down completely, her thoughts so charged with gruesome
possibilities that Mrs Lawless' efforts at reassurance were futile. It
was impossible, she declared, to accept comfort with the idea of the
hangman's rope ever present in her mind.
"I'm waiting for Theo to come up from town," she said tearfully. "He's
gone to interview lawyers and barristers, and anyone who is likely to be
able to help. Thank Heaven the assizes are on this month! I don't know
how I should bear a longer suspense."
Mr Smythe reached home as Mrs Lawless was driving away. She stopped
the car when she saw him, and he got out of the taxi he had driven up
from town in and went to speak to her.
"You've been with Kate," he said. "I'm glad of that. She's horribly
cut up, poor girl! It's a bad business... very. Looks black for Karl."
"You think,"--Mrs Lawless shivered involuntarily--"that he won't be
able to clear himself?"