Mrs Lawless was like a sick woman whose illness increased as the day
advanced. She had recognised the finality of things on the night when
Lawless walked out of her presence--out of her house, to return to the
woman with whose lot he had thrown in his own. It was another of the
mad, reckless acts that had governed his undisciplined nature. But
to-day, with her mind disturbed with thoughts of death and deeds of
violence, the memory of how she had let him go without exerting every
effort to persuade him to reconsider his decision troubled her greatly.
Why had she not humbled her pride and pleaded with him? ... Why had she
let the thought that it would be derogatory to her dignity deter her
from freely avowing her love for him? ... Might not the strength of her
love have stood between him and this evil? ... She felt as though hers
had been the hand to thrust him forth into the darkness for the second
time. Once before, in the years that were gone, she had thrust him
forth; and in the empty years that had succeeded she had learnt bitterly
to regret the hard unforgivingness of that act. Her one cry then had
been: "I didn't understand... Oh! if only I could have the chance
again." The opportunity had been given her, and she had failed to
recognise it. "He was so cold," she excused herself. "I was afraid of
him." And then: "I could not have prevented him from doing what he had
made up his mind to do... My power over him is dead..."
In that knowledge lay the bitterness of the sting...
In the afternoon, according to her promise, Julie Weeber arrived. She
was somewhat diffident of intruding, uncertain how Mrs Lawless felt the
news of Van Bleit's arrest. Julie shared the popular belief that it
would be a grievous shock to the woman whose name had been bandied about
in connection with his for months. To make sure, she inquired of the
native who opened the door to her whether Mrs Lawless were receiving.
"I would come another day, if it were more convenient," she said.
"Missis is expecting you," he answered, and showed her into the
drawing-room.
Zoe Lawless was seated in a low chair near one of the windows, with her
hands lying idly in her lap. She was very pale. Julie decided that she
looked ill, and imagined that she understood the reason of her pallor.
"I came," she explained, "because I said I would. But if you'd rather
have me some other day, I'll go away again."
"I'd rather that you stayed," Mrs Lawless answered, rising and shaking
hands. "You see, I'm lonely. Why should you condemn me to my own
society to-day?"
"I thought perhaps--"
Julie stammered and came upon an awkward pause, whereupon Mrs Lawless
went quickly to her assistance.