That evening, after Julie had left her, Mrs Lawless took the portrait
of Lawless from the piano, and sat with it in her hands examining it
closely. She was wondering whether the woman he had gone away with now
was the same woman he had wrecked his happiness for eight years ago--
wondering in a quite impersonal, dulled sort of way. The thing was past
remedying and altogether beyond her control. She remembered that in the
past it had been the wound to her self-esteem she had felt the most
bitterly. Her feelings had changed during the long years. She
experienced little of the grief, the anger, the disgust that had moved
her then. Her present sorrow was less a selfish emotion than sorrow for
the man because of the waste he was making of life. She scarcely
considered the woman outside her connection with Lawless, save, after
the tragedy of the previous night, to be relieved that, since she was to
influence him, she had removed him from other influences of a more
actively dangerous nature. She was glad that he was out of Cape Town,
otherwise she knew he would have been concerned in the affair that had
cost one life and might yet cost another.
And while she sat there musing on these matters with the photograph in
her hands, the door of the room opened, and to her astonishment Colonel
Grey was announced. He followed quickly on his name, as though
anticipating and anxious to prevent a refusal on her part to receive
him, offering an apology for intruding on her as he entered.
Mrs Lawless laid the photograph face downwards on the sofa and rose to
greet him. Her face expressed her surprise; his was grey and tired and
haggard, and his blood-shot eyes looked like the eyes of a man who has
not slept.
"I fear I have disturbed you," he said. "I'm sorry to intrude, but I
wish to see you."
"You have disturbed me doing nothing," she answered composedly. "I was
wearied of my thoughts. Sit down and tell me what you wanted to see me
for... Will you take anything?" she added, on a sudden thought, as he
dropped wearily into a chair. "You look tired."
"Thank you, no," he answered. "I am less tired than worried. But I
won't distress you by going into that. I quite understand that the
subject is painful to you, and for that reason I regret to inflict my
company on you."
Mrs Lawless looked slightly impatient. This man too! ... Was everyone
she met to say the same thing to her, only in different words?
"Please disabuse your mind of any such impression," she said. "Of
course I feel sympathy with the trouble of my friends, but your presence
cannot possibly increase my distress. Why should it?"