"I cannot quite understand"--in a curious dreamy tone, still spelled by
the mastery of impassioned emotion--"how you could miss loving Sylvie;
how she, woman-like, could help adoring you for your strength and
heroism. Jack, if I were a woman, your very power would compel me to
worship you. I should love you, whether or no."
Jack gave a bright, cheerful laugh. "It is that kind of strength you
like in Sylvie," he made answer. "She will always spur a man up to his
best. Her well-trained ear is quick to detect a false note in honor,
ambition, or love. She will never be any kind of dead weight, and yet
she is so deliciously womanly. There was a time--don't be vexed,
Fred,"--in a tender, pleading tone,--"when I thought you were not going
to be worthy of her. But that is past."
"She rejected me then," Fred Lawrence said simply. "I offered her my
father's wealth, the home he had made, my own folly and arrogance and
self-conceit; and then, Jack, she boldly admitted that you were her
hero! When I consider the sort of man my training and surroundings made
me, I am filled with disgust. And yet I was no worse than hundreds of
others at the present day. When I look at my mother, Irene, and myself,
I feel that we were the product of the so-called culture of the day,
which substitutes shallow creeds, conventional manners, and systems, for
all that is pure, strong, and noble in manhood or womanhood. It is the
sort of Greek temperament on which we pride our intellectual selves. We
revel in a glowing, sensuous enjoyment, that intoxicates the brain, and
leads us to disdain the real work of the world. We are trained to
consider what society demands of us; we are polished and refined, and in
too many instances left morally weak and ignorant. No wonder so many of
us have not the strength to buffet across the stormy sea of hard
experience, but are lost in the great whirlpool!"
Jack peered into the pale, handsome face by the faint light. Surely this
man had to make a tremendous effort for salvation, when nearly every
tide had been against him! He experienced a keener sympathy than he
could express; he drew the arm within his, and they paced up and down
again in silence, understanding dimly the sacred mysteries of each
other's hearts, that needed not to be dragged to open day for
inspection. In a pure friendship, faith is the highest element: with
that there is supreme content; without it, distrust gnaws like a
canker-worm.
They heard the little church-clock striking ten, and turned their steps
toward the house. On the porch, Fred paused a moment, while an icy fear
seemed to wring every pulse. He turned cold with apprehension.
"What if I have been deluding myself!" he cried with sudden intensity.
"Even if you and she could not love, she may have no such regard for me
as I desire. I could not endure her pity."
A warm, hopeful, generous smile illumined Jack Darcy's face. His hand
thrilled with an electric force and sympathy.