More credit is given to heroism which arises from physical courage than
is accorded usually to moral bravery. Yet the standard of physical
courage, however loudly acclaimed, ranks no higher. To win a victory
over one's self demands greater strength of purpose than is required for
the defeat of an ordinary foe. To obey a sense of right from motives
other than discretion necessitates courage of a superior order. And it
is through this courage, this quiet self-denial, that the world is kept
a little better, a little sweeter, than would be possible if each
individual set-out with the poor determination to gratify his every
desire.
Prudence had won a victory; but she did not feel triumphant; there was
no conscious elation in her heart. If the night air struck fresher and
purer by reason of this restraint, it also struck very chill. Its cold
breath enveloped her. She was weary and sad at heart.
Steele, too, was silent and dispirited. He parted from her in the road
outside the gate, parted in almost apathetic calmness, and turned and
walked quickly away down the hill. He did not once look back to where
Prudence waited at the gate and watched him with sad eyes, tearless now,
until the night enfolded him and hid him from her view. Then she let
herself into the house and went wearily up to bed.
That was the beginning and the end of her romance. All the fine
thinking in the world could not reduce the feeling of irreparable loss
which she experienced in the knowledge that he had passed out of her
life for ever. She had sent him away; and all her happiness went with
him, all her love. If for a moment she regretted the triumph of virtue,
it was but a transitory regret; but she did regret, passionately, that
life had come between her and the realisation of love. She believed
that she could never feel happy any more. She also believed that she
could not return to her husband. The thought of living again beneath
his roof was hateful to her.
Then merciful sleep overtook her, and the darkness closed down upon the
misery of her thoughts.
The morning brought no relief. Heavy-eyed and languid, Prudence went
downstairs, to find that she was late for prayers. She was aware of
William's gaze, as she slipped quietly into the room and took her seat,
fixed upon her with a curious, it seemed to her, even a suspicious
scrutiny. He paused in the reading and waited with a sort of aggressive
patience until she was seated. Then he continued in his sonorous voice
reading the lesson for the day.