His own marriage had fallen far short of his expectations. He knew that
he had not won Prudence's love. Since the night of their quarrel, when
she had confessed to loving Steele, the hope which he had fostered
patiently through the disappointing years, that he might yet win it, had
died utterly. But, oddly, that night with its ugly memories, its noisy
wrangling and bitter recrimination, had revealed with a certainty beyond
question that his own love for her, which he had believed was faded to
insignificance, was still very much alive. He wanted her very
earnestly. He missed her, missed her bright presence about the house,
her youthful prettiness, her coming and going in her independent search
for pleasure outside his home. She had brought a glimpse of the
unexpected, the delightful irrelevance of pleasant trivial things, into
the prosaic setting of everyday life which had caught him away
insensibly from the dulness and the worries of his stupendous business
undertakings, and brightened his home, very much, he often thought, as
the swift appearance of the sun would brighten the prospect on a grey
day. He had not realised, until she left him, how much he appreciated
these things. It was some return anyway, if not the most adequate he
could have desired, for the love he felt for her. He had made no
particular concession, had not even attempted to adapt himself to her
view of life. He had demanded a great deal of her and given little in
return.
These thoughts floated through his mind as he drove up the hill to the
house. He was seeing their case altogether differently from the days
when he had taken his young wife home and quarrelled with her seriously
over such unimportant matters as ventilation and the direction of
household affairs. He was, he realised now, directly responsible for
the beginning of the breach which had widened yearly and ended in an
open rupture. It remained for him to make amends for those earlier
mistakes which had broken up the peace of his home. He had led too
self-centred a life. In future he would evince greater interest in his
wife's doings, show more sympathy with her aims. After all, a wife
needs something more from her husband than board and lodging; she has a
right to his confidence and companionship. He had never attempted to
make a companion of her. He had treated her always as a child, a child
to be spoilt and petted, until she refused the petting. Lately he had
treated her with greater indifference, but still as a child, an
unreasonable child towards whom kindness was misdirected. It was not
surprising that the woman in her had rebelled.
It came as an agreeable surprise to Mr Morgan when he reached Court
Heatherleigh in the grey dawn, weary and cold after his long journey, to
be met on the doorstep by Prudence, who was the only member of the
household awake at that hour.