She broke off, and her gaze wandered away and came to rest again on the
balls.
"It's silly of me," she said, speaking very low. "I feel a little
afraid."
"Just shyness," he said reassuringly, stroking the hand which lay limply
in his. "I am old for you; but you will find me the more gentle,
possibly the more understanding, on that account. My darling, I love
you very dearly. You are so young--you don't know yet what love is. I
did not know either until recently. I come to it rather late. But my
feeling for you is very deep. Prudence, my dear, I want you. I love
you. If you give yourself to me I will do everything in my power to
make your life happy. Will you marry me, dear?"
It seemed to Prudence that there was only one possible answer. She had
understood when she invited him to come down the significance of what
she did. She had no right to encourage him to hope and then fail in her
part. He was too good a man to play with. She kept her face averted
while she answered him, staring fixedly at the shining balls, lying
where her last stroke had left them placed conveniently, she realised
with grim appreciation of her mistake, for him to score off.
"I want to be quite frank with you," she said, her breathing fast
through sheer nervousness, an earnest expression on her face, which he
thought very modest and gentle. "I don't love you, Mr Morgan,--not in
that way--not, I mean, as you love me. I've thought--I should like to
marry you. I think that still--only I'm afraid sometimes,--afraid that
you'll find me disappointing."
He placed his arm very gently round her shoulders and held her so
without attempting any warmer caress. He smiled into her troubled eyes.
"There is only one thing that could possibly disappoint me," he said,
"and that is if I fail to make you happy. Trust me, and all will be
well."
And so Prudence secured her passage through the door which it seemed he
alone could open for her into those wider spaces where she imagined
freedom was to be found. But emerging with Edward Morgan at her side,
it gradually became clear to her that she was doubly fettered. In
blindly groping for her freedom she had given herself to a new and more
complete bondage. She would leave the old tyranny behind her, only to
pass to another condition of fresh and more pressing obligations. The
certainty of these things came to her with the realisation of her
distaste for her new responsibility.
CHAPTER TWENTY THREE.
Prudence insisted upon a long engagement.