"And how it has been 'dingin' in my ears these days to fairly deeve
me," as Tremendous K. would say. "The bugle calls it every morning
when the boys march out on the campus. I see it in every headline of
the paper; I hear it in every call for men, and I'm afraid I haven't
wanted to listen. I have wanted my life to run along a smooth road,
the one I have planned for myself; a fine church with a big salary,
plenty of time to study and a little to travel, and you sitting in the
Manse pew with the best silk dress in the church. That has been my
programme. But the pleasant road was not the way the Master went, and
the servant cannot choose. He trod the hard way, and there is not the
slightest doubt in my mind which way He wants me to go. I know you are
guessing already at what I am going to ask of you. And now I must turn
upon you with your own slogan and say, 'Mothers must be brave!' Oh,
how brave and gallant they must be in these days, only they can know.
But I know you, Mother, well enough to tell that you will say yes when
I ask you to be brave enough to let me enlist. It is not a matter of
choice with me, I am constrained. Woe is me if I go not to Belgium!"
"I wish I could say this is all I am asking you to give up. Is it too
much that we ask you to let Sandy go, too? He is more eager than I and
saw his duty clearly from the first. We both realise that yours is the
hardest part. But your sons couldn't be slackers. And after all the
war may not last so long, and we'll be home before you know it. Sandy
will likely be a general, and who knows but I may get to be a
lance-corporal!"
There was more in the same light strain and a note for Christina from
Sandy, saying he was taking the officers' course and she must remember
when he came home to say "sir" to him when she addressed him.
But Christina did not read the letter through at first. When the full
meaning of it burst upon her she turned to her mother, expecting to see
tears, but instead her mother's small bent figure had grown suddenly
straight and her eyes were shining with a strange mingling of pride and
anguish.
"Oh, Mother!" cried Christina, "oh, don't I wish I were a boy!"
"Whisht, whisht!" cried her mother, "I could ill spare you, Christine,
I can ill spare the lads." And then she rose and went quietly into the
bedroom and shut the door, and Christina knew that her mother had gone
for strength to bear this trial to the source of all power.
When Wallace came up the hill the next evening, he found the Lindsays
in a state of subdued excitement. Christina's cheeks were crimson and
her eyes shone until she looked positively handsome.
"Sandy and Neil are both going to the war," she cried half in dismay,
half in exultation.
"Are they really?" asked Wallace. "They're lucky. This beastly
breakdown of mine has spoiled all my chances. My, I'd like to be in
their boots!"