There was more about what Gavin had done in that last dread struggle.
But Christina could not take the time to read it. She opened Gavin's
letter reverently, with trembling hands. The blinding tears would
permit her to make out only a few sentences at a time.
"I wrote you a letter last night," it said, "and I hope you will not
think I am too bold to be writing you another to-night. But we are
going up into a rather bad place to-night and if I do not come back, I
want to send you a good-bye message. I have never been able to tell
you how much you have always been to me. I could not even write it in
a letter. I have always been afraid I would offend you. But I thought
you would not mind that I told you if I never came back. You have
always been so far above me, that I did not have the courage to try to
go with you. And then somebody else came, and I knew I had no chance
then. But you have always been my girl in spite of all that, ever
since the day you filled my pail with your berries to save me from a
thrashing. I was always singing about you when I sang that old song,
"'My love is young and fair,
My love has golden hair,
And eyes so blue and heart so true
That none with her compare.'
"It was partly because you were so much to me that I wanted to enlist.
I felt that I would be fighting for you. And if I do not come back
to-morrow I will be glad to feel that I will be helping to save you
from harm. You will not miss me, but the Aunties will, and I am going
to ask a great favour of you. Will you always go to see them, and
comfort them? And tell them they must not grieve for me. It is so
much better to come out here and die for a good cause than to live in
peace and safety at home. I am so glad, and they must be glad too, for
my sake. I will have your little ring----"
Christina could read no more just then. Her bright head went down on
the sunny window sill, she slipped to the floor in a very passion of
grief. She was realising with overwhelming remorse that a most
beautiful thing had happened to her and her eyes had been too blind to
see until the pageant had faded. Her True Knight--and what lady of
high degree had a knight more noble?--her True Knight had ridden out to
mortal combat, and she had not even waved him farewell from her window!
She left the work with Mitty the next day and went up over the hills to
see the Grant Girls. She did not take her letter, it was too sacred
for even their loving eyes, but she wanted to talk to them about Gavin
and, if she were alone with Auntie Elspie, she would whisper to her
that her heart had gone out into the storm and darkness after Gavin
that night he went to the war, and that it still followed him somewhere
in the shining regions where he moved.