Jan of the Windmill: A Story of the Plains — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Jan of the Windmill: A Story of the Plains
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As the Cheap Jack stooped for the half crown thrown to him, Mr. Ford’s
client gave Jan some pence, saying, “You can keep these yourself.” Jan’s
face, with a look of gratitude upon it, seemed to startle him afresh, but
it was getting dark, and the crowd was closing round him. Jan had just
entertained a wild thought of asking his protection, when he was gone.
What the strange gentleman had said about his unlikeness to the Cheap
Jack, and also the thoughts awakened by hearing the old song, gave new
energy to a resolve to which Jan had previously come. He had resolved to
run away.
Since he awoke from the stupor of the draught which Sal had given him at
the cross-roads, and found himself utterly in the power of the
unscrupulous couple who pretended to be his parents, his life had been
miserable enough. They had never intended to take him back to the mill,
and, since they came to London and he was quite at their mercy, they had
made no pretence of kindness. That they kept him constantly at work
could hardly be counted an evil, for his working hours were the only ones
with happiness in them, except when he dreamed of home. Not the cold
pavement chilling him through his ragged clothes, not the strange staring
and jesting of the rough crowds, not even the hideous sense of the
hunchback’s vigilant oversight of him, could destroy his pleasure in the
sense of the daily increasing powers of his fingers, in which genius
seemed to tremble to create. In the few weeks of his apprenticeship to
screeving, Jan had improved more quickly than he might have done under
such teaching as the Squire had been willing to procure for the village
genius. At the peril of floggings from the Cheap Jack, too many of which
had already scarred his thin shoulders, he ransacked his brains for
telling subjects, and forced from his memory the lines which told most,
and told most quickly, of the pathetic look on Rufus’s face, the anger,
pleasure, or playfulness of the mill cats. Perhaps none of us know what
might be forced, against our natural indolence, from the fallow ground of
our capabilities in many lines. The spirit of a popular subject in the
fewest possible strokes was what Jan had to aim at for his daily bread,
under peril of bodily harm hour after hour, for day after day, and his
hand gained a cunning it might never otherwise have learned, and could
never unlearn now.
In other respects, his learning was altogether of evil. Perhaps because
they wished to reconcile him to his life, perhaps because his innocent
face and uncorrupted character were an annoyance and reproach to the
wicked couple, they encouraged Jan to associate with the boys of their
own and the neighboring courts.