Kathleen's Diamonds; or, She Loved a Handsome Actor — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Kathleen's Diamonds; or, She Loved a Handsome Actor
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He saw himself five years ago a boy of twenty-two, brilliant, ardent,
and impetuous, just beginning his dramatic career. At the very outset
he had fallen into the toils of a beautiful actress years older than
himself. By a clever playing of her cards, she had entrapped him into
a marriage; but scarcely had the honey-moon waned ere he learned to
his horror the true character of his wife. She was false, light, and
wicked, and no entreaties could win her from her wicked ways.
A separation ensued, and Ralph, ashamed to court publicity by applying
for a divorce, agreed to support the false woman if she would promise
not to annoy him by venturing into his presence. She accepted these
terms, but instead of retiring to seclusion, as he desired her,
Fedora, as she called herself, joined a ballet troupe, and scandalized
her unfortunate young husband by her wild career. Still the marriage
was wholly unknown to the world, and in hopes of maintaining this
silence, the young actor suffered on patiently, his pride wounded, his
fancy dead, his soul thrilled with disgust, but one solace left to him,
and that the knowledge that his false wife had kept faith with him in
preserving his secret--kept faith because he had threatened her with
exposure and divorce upon its betrayal.
At last she had broken faith, and, bitterest of all, had betrayed his
miserable folly to the one woman that he wished never to know it--to
beautiful, proud Kathleen, the idol of his very soul, for whom he had
felt all the passion of the poet's plaint:
"I love you. That is all. Life holds no more.
Here in your arms I have no other world.
Where is the mad ambition known of yore?
All fled away to some far-distant shore,
And lost forever. Yes, I love you, sweet--
You only--you alone. My heart, my life
I lay--a meager offering--at your feet."
It had fallen on him like a crushing blow, the knowledge that Fedora
lived, when he had been duped, deceived into believing that she was
dead and he was free.
A telegraphic message from Richmond, where she had been playing, had
summoned him to her death-bed; but when he reached the city her friends
told him she was dead and buried.
They showed him a new grave in the beautiful shades of romantic
Hollywood, and presented him with a long bill for her funeral expenses.
He paid it without a murmur, and could not help feeling glad that he
was rid of his terrible incubus. He did not dream that it was only a
clever plot of the wicked woman to extort money, and that she enjoyed
very much the liberal sum he had handed over to liquidate the expenses
of her interment.
He realized it all now--saw how cruelly Fate, in the shape of the
heartless Fedora, had used him, and, with a bitter groan, stared his
cruel destiny in the face.
Fedora--his false wife--lived! She had parted him forever from his
beautiful, dark-eyed love.