Kathleen's Diamonds; or, She Loved a Handsome Actor — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Kathleen's Diamonds; or, She Loved a Handsome Actor
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"Oh, Uncle Ben, I ought not to have told you this distressing story!"
she exclaimed, remorsefully. "I am so glad to think that I never told
papa the story I had from the dying housekeeper. It would have been
so cruel for him to know that the woman he had loved and trusted had
plotted away the life of my mother."
"Hush, child! you drive me mad! This is too cruel!" groaned the old man.
He leaned his gray head forward on the seat, and sobs, all the fiercer
for being suppressed, shook his slight frame. Kathleen wept, too, and
altogether it was a sorrowful journey they had to the home from which
Vincent Carew had carried Zaidee, his fair young bride, to meet so dark
a fate. They talked but little, for a heavy cloud of trouble hung over
their spirits and shadowed the future, and the young girl at length
became conscious of a strange dread of arriving at the end of the
journey so long ardently desired. She ascribed it to sudden timidity at
meeting strangers. She did not dream it was a warning presentiment.
She was glad that the cars went straight through Lincoln Station
without changing. She could not bear to be reminded of that terrible
night when the talon-like fingers of her unknown assailant had closed
stranglingly about her white throat, and of all the sorrows that had
followed after. The girl, so young and tender, shuddered as with an
ague chill, wondering how she had lived through it all.
"And poor Daisy Lynn! poor Daisy Lynn! what ever became of that unhappy
girl?" she wondered, pitifully, and her thoughts wandered to the
girl's sad love story. "How sorrowful it is to go mad for love!" she
sighed. "And yet, how sad it is to lose one's love and remain sane
and conscious in the midst of all the cruel pain. Oh, God! am I fated
to lose Ralph, my own true lover? How shall I bear to give my hand to
another man while I love Ralph so dearly?" And when the train ran into
the station at Richmond she was weeping bitter, burning tears for her
love, Ralph, from whom she was so cruelly parted. "Oh, the pity of it
that I did not believe in him that day that I sent him away from me in
scorn, when he was already so sorrowful! Oh, Ralph, my darling! I did
not think then that I should ever be suing for your forgiveness for
my cruel words; but now--now I could fall at your feet for pity and
pardon!" sobbed the unhappy young girl; and there came to her a memory
of some verses she had read in the poems of Mittie Point Davis--sweet,
sad verses from a loving heart:
"I did not think that I should say it first,
That summer evening when we quarreled so
About some trifle you had magnified--
Men are so harsh, you know.
I said some bitter words of hate and scorn;
My pride was up, my temper too, indeed--
But now I know that I perhaps was wrong,
And, dearest, I am brave enough to plead:
Forgive me!