Laurel Vane; or, The Girls' Conspiracy — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Laurel Vane; or, The Girls' Conspiracy
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"What does it mean? Will she forgive me? Will she come back to me?" he
asked himself, in a bewildering maze of hope and anxiety.
Laurie opened the door and ran out into the hall. He came back in a
moment, and before he entered St. Leon heard the echo of a loved,
familiar footstep beside that of the child. The color rushed into his
face. His heart beat tumultuously.
"Why did you run away, mamma?" the child was still repeating as they
came across the threshold hand in hand.
St. Leon had heard that she had been very ill after the shock of his
supposed death that dreadful night. He had drawn some hopeful auguries
from the news at first. Perhaps she loved him still, perhaps she would
relent and come back to him. But he had waited so long for a sign from
her that he had fallen into despair again. The sight of her now, as she
came into the room, revived the dying embers of hope within his breast.
To his fond, adoring eyes she had never looked more lovely despite the
closely cut curls and the extreme pallor of her face. She came across
the floor holding the child by the hand, and as she met the imploring
gaze of his eyes her own seemed to swim in a fine glittering mist of
unshed tears. She stood there silently a moment, and he waited humbly
to hear her speak--to pronounce his doom, as it were, for it seemed to
him that fate itself hung on those tender, wistful lips. In that moment
of passionate suspense and longing it seemed to him that he experienced
something of the feelings that must have thrilled her that terrible
night when she had prayed him for forgiveness and he had coldly put her
away.
"It is retribution," he said to himself, while the cold dew of agony
beaded his brow.
She was holding Laurie's hand tightly clasped within her own. Once,
twice, she raised it to her lips, then suddenly she laid it quickly in
St. Leon's palm and withdrew her own. Her voice had a strange, almost
dying sound as she said:
"You saved my life, St. Leon. Ay, you did more--you would have given
your life for mine! Do not think me ungrateful. Do not believe that I
could forget what I owe you. I am come to make reparation. You would
have given me your life. See! I give you what is dearer than my life to
me--the heir to Eden!"
Then she stepped back into the shadow. She did not wish him to see the
white agony that was written on her face. She would make the sacrifice
bravely, not showing him all that it cost her bleeding heart.
He drew one arm around the child and held him to his breast. He kept
the other free. His eyes turned wistfully to that fair, sad face, half
veiled by the falling curtain.
"Laurel," he breathed.
There was a world of tenderness, passion, and entreaty in his tone. Her
heart beat wildly. She turned toward him, trying to look calm and brave.
He held out his other arm to her, but she would not understand. She
gazed at him in silent distress.