Let Us Kiss and Part; or, A Shattered Tie — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Let Us Kiss and Part; or, A Shattered Tie
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At the last words of St. John, “If she has sinned,” spoken in a
sorrowful tone that told how firmly he believed in her guilt, all
her soul seemed to rise in passionate rebellion, and with the false
strength despair sometimes lends, Iris advanced toward the group
near the doorway, and stood before them, a little, solitary figure,
with white, set features, whose immobility would have been actually
startling but for the convulsive twitching of the muscles of the
colorless lips, and the large, blue eyes dilated like those of a hunted
stag.
“Of what sin am I accused, Mr. Hilton?” she asked. “For what crime does
my mother condemn me so harshly?” Then turning suddenly to St. John,
before Hilton could answer: “I left this gentleman’s home because he
taught me that I had no claim upon him--that I, who had believed myself
his daughter, was the child of an unworthy father whose name I should
blush to bear. I went forth from this house to earn my own bread, and
since that time I have done nothing of which I need be ashamed, nor----”
She came to a sudden stop here, while for a moment the color grew
deeper and deeper in her face, and then faded utterly, leaving her
again deadly pale.
She had thought of Gerald Dare’s words, and the suspicions her presence
in the house of Charles Broughton had awakened.
Her sudden hesitation and confusion, and the ineradicable flush
of shame that had dyed her cheeks at this cruel memory, seemed to
contradict her previous assertion of innocence, and to shake the faith
new-born in Chester St. John’s heart.
At Iris’ first words Oscar Hilton had trembled lest there should
be something said concerning the forged letter, and he now seized
this moment of the girl’s embarrassment to turn the drift of the
conversation into a new channel.
“My poor child,” he ejaculated, in a tone of well-feigned sympathy,
“do not seek to defend your conduct. Unhappily we have all been made
acquainted with the manner in which you have passed your time since
leaving my protection. If--as you say--you are innocent, will you be
good enough to tell us what you are to the noted gambler and roué,
Charles Broughton?”
At this coarse and rude question Iris started violently, and looked
into the face of the speaker with an expression of actual terror,
fearing for the moment that he had in some manner learned the secret of
Broughton’s identity.
That one swift glance into his eyes reassured her. She knew that he
shared, or pretended to share, the common belief that Broughton was her
lover, and she dared say nothing to undeceive him.
“I can tell you nothing at present, but some time you will know all,
and learn how deeply you have wronged me. My mother will forgive me
then, and bitterly regret her cruelty.”
She took a step toward the door as she concluded, keeping her eyes
turned resolutely away from the face of Chester St. John, lest the
sight of it should rob her of the last remnant of strength she was
struggling so hard to maintain.