Let Us Kiss and Part; or, A Shattered Tie — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Let Us Kiss and Part; or, A Shattered Tie
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They did not know how she had schemed and sinned for that honor, nor
that the sweets of victory had turned to dead sea fruit upon her lips.
His short-lived passion was dead, and in spite of his honorable efforts
to disguise his indifference, Cora realized his patient misery, and
knew that the day of their wedding was secretly unwelcome to his heart.
A nobler woman would have given him his freedom unasked, too proud to
accept the hand without the heart.
Not so Cora, who recklessly ran every risk for the sake of gratifying
her love and ambition, hurrying on the wedding day in spite of her
aunt’s lingering illness and painful anxiety, and despite the fact that
she knew that secretly Frank resented the unseemly haste.
Indeed, she had overheard him lamenting it to Mrs. Dalrymple, saying:
“I fear it looks selfish to you, our marrying and going off in such
haste, leaving you in this trouble.”
“Do not think of me. Cora is the only one to be considered now. She
feels that she has waited too long for her happiness to have it
postponed longer,” she answered.
He noticed that she made no reference to his own case, and flushed
slightly, dreading lest she had penetrated the secret of his love for
her missing daughter, and meant to rebuke him for fickleness to Cora.
He said no more, for Cora entered just then with a downcast face,
having managed to overhear their brief conversation. They were going
for a drive, and presently Mrs. Dalrymple was left alone with her
thoughts.
They were not pleasant ones, for they veered with painful persistence
between the missing daughter and the dead father.
In the dear, dead past she had loved him well, and the old love seemed
to wake again, now that he was dead and beyond her tenderness.
So often since you went away,
I wonder in a vain despair,
If you are sad, if you are glad,
And if you miss me there!
Do you recall impatient words
Full of life’s jar and pain?
Oh, I would take them back, dear heart,
If you could come again!
She leaned her beautiful, dark head on her wasted, white hand where the
blue veins showed so clearly, and burning tears flowed down her cheeks.
Suzanne entered with the afternoon mail on a salver, placed it on a
stand before her mistress, and gently retired.
Dashing away the unwelcome tears, she began going over the letters,
mostly affectionate missives from her “dear Four Hundred friends,”
expressing affectionate pleasure at her rumored great improvement in
health.
Dropping them wearily one after the other, she came upon one addressed
in so large a masculine hand that she stared at it in some curiosity.
Then she saw that it was not addressed to herself, but to Miss Darling
Dalrymple, and was postmarked New York.
“How very, very strange this is, and how familiar the handwriting
looks!” she cried with a quickened heartthrob, and she decided that in
this case it was her duty to open her daughter’s letter.