'Lizbeth of the Dale — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
'Lizbeth of the Dale
John Stuart Mill · en
She began carefully--away back at the resolution her young heart had
made to use her influence with Mrs. Jarvis to help Eppie. Of her
higher aims and aspirations she could not speak; and because she was
forced to do so, to be silent concerning her yearnings for a higher
life, and the revelation that had come to her that wonderful afternoon
in St. Stephen's; because of this, even to her own ears, her story did
not sound convincing. Her course of conduct did not appear so
inevitable as it had before she faced her aunt.
When she had bidden Mrs. Jarvis farewell, declaring she could no longer
endure the life of fashion and idleness which they lived, and had
buried poor old Sandy and taken Eppie and fled home with her, she had
been as thoroughly convinced as Charles Stuart, her aider and abettor,
that this was the only line of conduct to pursue. To Elizabeth's mind
it had appeared beyond doubt that, from the day her benefactress,
acting through Mr. Huntley, had allowed Eppie to be driven from her
home, that those two had been directly responsible for all the girl's
misery. And this one case had revealed to her the awful train of
innocent victims that must surely follow in the path of selfish
idleness which Mrs. Jarvis pursued, or that of money-making followed by
Mr. Huntley. And Elizabeth, too, was of their world, eating of their
bread, accepting all the luxury that came from this wrong-doing. This
was the thought that had stung her into such headlong action. She had
told Mrs. Jarvis the whole truth, offending her bitterly thereby, and
had escaped without even a word of farewell to Mr. Huntley. But now,
in the telling of it all, she seemed to see herself each moment growing
more culpable and ridiculous in her aunt's eyes.
And when she finished her story with an appeal, she was met by that
old, old sentence that had been so many times pronounced upon her:
"I cannot understand you."
Elizabeth did not quite understand herself. She knew only that an
inner voice--an echo from the thrilling words spoken in the church--had
commanded and she could not but obey. The King's Highway was calling
for her--she was needed to make it smooth for someone's feet. That
voice had promised great things, too,--that the wilderness and the
solitary places should be glad because of her coming, that the rose of
Sharon should blossom by her side--that, because of her, some little of
the sorrow and sighing of this sad world should flee away. And now,
instead, there were thorns along the pathway, and she had brought
distress upon one she loved.
If she could only explain, she said to herself in despair. She looked
out of the west window away down Champlain's Road with its swaying,
towering hedge of bejeweled elms, to the old farm-house against the
pines of Long Hill. Mother MacAllister would understand without any
explanation. If she were only telling Mother MacAllister!