“It will not be necessary, sir, for Mrs. Varian has saved me the
trouble of a long explanation. What she has related is perfectly true
on the face of it, but behind the tragedy of our divorce lie the actual
facts of the terrible mistakes of a jealous woman and a heedless man
too secure of his great happiness to guard it close enough.”
A great thrill ran through the listeners, as he continued:
“I hold myself to blame that I was impatient of my wife’s jealousy,
and laughed at her fears that Miss Lowe was trying to win my heart. I
pitied my ward for her orphanage and poverty, and I was too generous
to believe that she was aught but a joyous-hearted girl whose little
kittenish coquetries amounted to nothing. I was simply blind, besides
being inordinately proud and passionately resentful of my wife’s unjust
suspicions. I loved her to idolatry, and her lack of faith angered me.
I carried everything with too high a hand, perhaps, but I did not dream
to what lengths the affair was going.”
Doctor Deane interposed gently:
“You are exhausting your strength by too long a discourse.”
“Doctor, what difference can it make to a dying man whether his little
stock of strength is exhausted sooner or later?” wearily.
“Go on then; but be brief.”
“I found out too late,” continued Everard Dawn, “that Miss Lowe was
different from what I thought. She had indeed conceived a mad love
for me that had driven her to desperate lengths to win me. It is true
that she followed me to Georgia, true that I married her, but only
because of her passionate pleadings and assertions that through my
wife’s jealousy her character had been ruined. I gave her the shelter
of my name, but, God forgive me, I hated her as long as she lived, and
could not help rejoicing when she was dead. I obtained a position as a
commercial traveler, so that I could spend most of my time away from
her side, so her victory was a poor one after all, for she had wrecked
two lives without gaining any happiness for herself. As for the rest, I
affirm now on my death-bed and on my hopes of heaven, that Gladys Lowe
and I were as innocent of wrong-doing before my divorce as the purest
angel. She was wicked enough to make my wife believe it, through her
jealousy so easily imposed on, but she was not guilty, so help me
Heaven!”
He paused, and there rose a stifled cry of bitter anguish. It came
from Cinthia’s ghastly lips as the cruel truth began to dawn on her
bewildered brain.
Everard Dawn looked at her pityingly, and said:
“Ah, Cinthia, you understand it all now. She was your mother. Perhaps
you will not blame me now that I failed in love to you, that I forgot
my duty to you in resentment at what you represented--the wicked love
of a woman who wrecked my life in parting me from all that made it
dear.”