Loved you better than you knew — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Loved you better than you knew
John Stuart Mill · en
“Sight-seers whom we do not know, I suppose, so let us hide in here
and finish our talk and our cigars till they leave. I care no more for
womankind, be she never so fair, since I have lost the lovely queen of
my heart,” one said to the other; so they fled the scene till it should
be safe to venture out.
He was dark and striking in appearance, the other was fairer and
younger than his companion by several years. His clustering locks were
light golden brown, and the beauty of his face was enhanced by the
expressive dark-blue eyes, where shadows of secret sorrow seemed to
lurk in half-discovered ambush.
“Fred they are coming this way by their voices. Let us turn our backs
to the door, so that they will see we are not anxious to be disturbed,”
he said, presently.
“A good idea, Arthur,” and suiting the action to the word, they
presented two broad backs toward the new-comers, who had barely stepped
across the threshold ere they recoiled, each with a stifled cry of
surprise.
The Mother Eve that is in all men just as much as in all women made the
two smokers spring up and look around at the intruders.
Then there were more startled exclamations all around.
For the fate that seemed to pursue Cinthia Dawn with its cruelest irony
had followed her even here.
She had fled from the far North to the far South to escape Arthur
Varian, and she had hoped never to gaze again in life on his too
fatally fascinating beauty--the manly beauty that had lured the girlish
heart from her breast only to toss it back to her at the command of
cruel parents, who seemed to have forgotten the fervor of youthful
love, or they never could have been so harsh to their tortured children.
Yet, here stood Arthur Varian before her again--Arthur Varian pale to
the very lips, Arthur Varian with unmasked despair in his beautiful,
dark-blue eyes.
CHAPTER XXVIII. ONLY FRIENDS.
“I ask no pledge to make me blest
In gazing when alone,
Nor one memorial for a breast
Whose thoughts are all thine own.
“By day or night, in weal or woe,
That heart no longer free
Must bear the love it can not show
And silent ache for thee.”
But whatever cruel pain this unexpected meeting produced on Arthur and
Cinthia, its effect on Frederick Foster was wholly joyful.
He could scarcely believe his own joyful sight when he saw Cinthia
again.
For weary months, ever since their abrupt parting on the New York pier,
she had been lost to him as wholly as if she were already in her grave.
The most eager and anxious inquiry on his part had failed to disclose
her whereabouts.
With genuine grief--for he was most passionately in love with
Cinthia--he had given up the hopeless quest, realizing that nothing but
blind chance would ever bring them together again.
His pride was cruelly wounded, too, for he felt that if Cinthia
had cared for him, she must surely have sent him an answer to the
interrupted proposal he had made while they were leaving the steamer
arm in arm.