Loved you better than you knew — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Loved you better than you knew
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She gave a violent start, and stared fixedly at the handsome head and
broad shoulders a few seats ahead.
Could it be? Or was she dreaming? Surely those outlines were too
familiar for her to be mistaken.
It was _he_! She saw him lean forward to answer the women in the next
seat. The outline of his handsome profile was clear for a moment.
She fell back almost stunned, secretly railing at her ill fortune.
Janetta, the maid, leaned forward from the back seat.
“Do you wish anything, madame? You seem ill.”
She whispered back:
“Who are those people in front of us there?”
“Some people from your own town, madame; a Mrs. Flint, her brother, and
her servant. The lady has been sick, and I heard the conductor telling
some one back there that they were going South for her health.”
“Ah!” and Mrs. Varian shut her eyes and relapsed into pallor and
silence again.
Janetta, good, faithful soul, watched her uneasily, feeling she was not
well.
She was inwardly ill indeed--raging at the trick fate had played on her
this day.
“To endure this thirty-six hours--the sight of him whenever I open my
eyes--it is impossible!” she said to herself, in a sort of blank terror.
Janetta touched her gently, whispering:
“You are very pale--I hope not ill.”
She could fancy that she was ghastly to evoke this anxiety, so she
answered:
“I do not feel quite my usual self. I am thinking of not going on
to-night any further than Charlottesville, and resuming our journey
to-morrow, if I am better.”
“Perhaps that is the better plan,” the maid returned, respectfully,
though secretly rather disappointed at delaying the journey.
But she was used to her mistress and her capricious notions. She had
simply to obey.
So when they reached the university town a little further on, the
mistress and maid left the train, to the great relief of Everard Dawn,
who thought:
“I was right. She is _en route_ for Washington. She will board the
Northern train at this point. But how lonely it seemed, just the two
women traveling together. I remember she used to be one of those
dependent women, always preferring a man’s escort. Arthur ought to be
with her now, poor Paulina!”
Mrs. Flint exclaimed:
“Was not that Mrs. Varian leaving the train?”
“I believe so,” he replied, carelessly; and then the brief wait at the
station being over, the train rushed on into the deep gloom of twilight.
It was scarcely a mile further on that, lying back with shut eyes
and confused thoughts that mostly centered around the lonely figure
of the woman just gone, he was roused by a terrible roar, a jumble
of horrible sound, movement, and stifled shrieks of fear and pain,
then consciousness gave way, and he lay still and death-like under
the _débris_ of a dreadful railway wreck--a collision caused by the
misplacing of a switch.
* * * * *
Mrs. Varian revived out in the cold evening air, and she congratulated
herself on her lucky escape, as she and Janetta sought the nearest
hotel.