If man is incapable of estimating the full degree of a visitation
of evil, so also is he equally at fault in appreciating his present
advantages, until he be suddenly deprived of them. So it fell in this
matter of Hiridia's removal, whose unhappy consequences to myself only
emerged gradually after the event. Until a few weeks ago I could never
have believed that Hiridia's companionship had been of such vital help
to me or had so sweetened my royal existence. I had been accustomed
to regard my erstwhile tutor rather as a favoured page whom it amused
me to confide in, to mystify, to scold, or to twit as might suit my
passing whim. That I should have deeply regretted his departure I was
quite ready to admit; but I never anticipated the serious nature of my
loss till that loss was effected. A veritable portion of myself seemed
to have been lopped away by this devilish scheme; whilst the haunting
thought that the poor boy--for I made scant allowance for his thirty
years now fulfilled--was almost certainly sobbing out his faithful and
affectionate heart in a hateful prison, only served to fan the flame
of my torment. Yet I was helpless and powerless, and could only await
the approach of the solstice, when the expected bath in the Fountain of
Rejuvenation might possibly brace my brain for some successful plan of
action.
III
Happily this ceremony was not many weeks distant, and its approach
afforded me some objective, however uncertain and inadequate, for
fixing my hopes in the future. The lassitude too that usually preceded
this half-yearly reinvigorating process had appeared rather earlier
than its wont, so that the physical weariness and languor were already
rendering my brain less active and thereby indirectly supplying me with
some measure of relief from my tense anxiety. I continued to perform
my daily duties in the judgment halls of the city, but otherwise I
ceased to leave the palace during this time of ineffable loneliness and
humiliation. To fill Hiridia's vacant place of chamberlain I nominated
Zulàr, and likewise selected another equerry. With my daily routine
thus proceeding outwardly much as usual, I relied on my being left
in peace throughout the intervening weeks before the coming of the
solstice. But herein I was grievously mistaken in supposing that the
machinations of my enemies had been even temporarily suspended, as the
following incident can testify.