Meleager : $b A fantasy — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Meleager : $b A fantasy
John Stuart Mill · en
With special insistence and appeal and with arguments whose soundness
I was forced to admit, I had even allowed Dr Wayne to clip my
super-abundant locks, and had likewise consented to clothe myself in a
tolerable suit of blue serge, which he had begged from a good-natured
passenger of unusual height. Thus clad and groomed, I managed to
leave the boat in company with my careful protector without exciting
overmuch curiosity either from my fellow-travellers of the _Orissa_ or
from the crowd on the landing-stage. After a certain amount of staring
and a good many inquiries, which Dr Wayne skilfully parried, I found
myself in a cab loaded with the Doctor's luggage jolting through the
squalid streets of Liverpool on our way to a hotel. Here we spent a few
hours in a private room, surrounded by masses of newspapers which my
companion set to study with intense eagerness.
And here I shall digress a little in order to confront a real
difficulty of understanding which must have already struck the reader.
How evolved it that a complete stranger like Dr Charles Wayne allowed
himself to be so burdened with such an incubus as myself? That is a
query, I admit, which none save Dr Wayne is competent to answer, but I
suspect even he can hardly solve the difficulty satisfactorily. When he
comes to read these pages in due course, he may conceivably be able to
say, "It was this," or "It was that, which not only aroused my interest
in this mysterious being but also impelled me to serve and obey him
henceforward." Yet even then I think he will fail to analyse truthfully
the different motives which induced him thus to surrender his own
freedom of action and to place himself without a murmur at my disposal.
It may have been my piteous condition of solitude; it may have been my
almost unearthly beauty of form and face; it may have been my uncanny
misfortune out in mid-ocean; it may have been my quiet arrogance and
originality of demeanour; it may have been his professional curiosity
in a prospective patient;--it may have been one, or some, or all, or
none of these things which contributed to his subservience. I cannot
tell, and I feel Dr Wayne may be no wiser in the matter than myself.
Sometimes I imagine that some faint exhalation of the supernatural
must cling around my person, for it does not seem impossible to me
that after adventures such as mine a delicate psychical fragrance (if
I may so dare to describe that which is in reality indescribable) may
permeate my bodily husk. Such an aroma, though but dimly comprehended,
might admittedly prove of irresistible attraction to that rare
spiritual type of humanity to which I strongly hold Dr Wayne to belong
in spite of his homely exterior. I trust he will pardon the apparent
impertinence of this statement, since it proceeds from the sole being
who has been able to discover and appreciate the inherent sweetness and
strength of his soul within. And for my own part I am often haunted by