My impressions of London were so confused in this early stage of the
great European War that I see little gain in attempting to crystallise
my feelings into any sort of description. Indeed, I found it well-nigh
impossible to attune my own thoughts to the popular attitude of the
moment; but then I never ceased to remind myself that of necessity
I was detached from a purely patriotic outlook owing to my long
residence in Meleager with its consequent effects on a plastic mind
that had definitely grown to regard the Earth and all therein as things
left behind for evermore. The excited talk and scandal of the hotel
corridors, the sheaves of redundant telegrams affixed from time to time
on the public screens, the yells of the newsvendors, the headlines of
the popular journals announcing English, French, Russian, Belgian and
Servian victories in endless succession; the _brouhaha_ of the streets
and the gossip of the boudoir, all alike left me cold and phlegmatic.
Dr Wayne used to read aloud to me daily from half-a-dozen papers, for I
had signally failed to reacquire my long-suspended love of reading; but
I was unable to grasp more than the patent fact that the fate of Paris
was hanging in the balance:--Paris, the city of light and leadership;
Paris the capital of Saint Louis, of Henry of Navarre, of Louis le Roi
Soleil, of Napoleon Buonaparte; Paris, the erstwhile acme of my earthly
ideals. Doubtless it was my own obliquity and rustiness of mind that
caused this lamentable lack of comprehension of the situation as a
whole, and prevented me from viewing it through those same rosy glasses
of insular humour wherewith the bulk of my countrymen were regarding
the trend of passing events on the Continent. I knew myself to be at
best an amphibian, with my body on Earth and my heart in Meleager, yet
capable of a residence in either planet. I felt lost and lonely in this
city of reek and confusion, whose inhabitants probably outnumbered the
whole tale of my own forsaken people. After a week or so I ceased to
find solace in wandering amid streets and churches and galleries, and
spent more hours than ever in musing with my eyes directed towards the
river, the shipping and the steeples that clove the hot blue August
sky. Dr Wayne meanwhile was busied with many matters, such matters as
would presumably engage the attention of a time-expired Indian public
servant; and from my peculiar tincture of indifference I was equally
resigned to his absence or his presence, provided only he did not
desert me, of which contingency I had no fear whatsoever.