I wonder if my reader has ever experienced Fear. And by Fear I do not
mean mere fright, or terror, or alarm, or other mental spasms with
which Fear is so often vulgarly confused. If he reads Mr Kipling's
poems about Mowgli, the little hunter of the jungle, he will obtain
some inkling of that mysterious emotion which is in reality man's
tribute to a relentless destiny.
"Very softly down the glade runs a waiting watching shade,
And the whisper spreads and widens far and near;
And the sweat is on thy brow, for he passes even now--
He is Fear, O little Hunter, he is Fear!
And thy throat is shut and dried, and thy heart against thy side
Hammers: Fear, O little Hunter--this is Fear."
Yes, Fear in one aspect is a physical recognition of the existence
and the approach of the Unknown; and its external symptoms are first
of all an involuntary erection of the hair of the head, a sensation
of intense heat in the scalp and a subsequent exudation of chill
sweat over the body, which last offers some relief to the internal
or psychical lesion caused by Fear. I endured it then, as I suddenly
realised in the midst of Dr Wayne's half-humorous discourse that I
was a fly caught in the web of Fate; a victim rotating on the wheel
of destiny; an atom of humanity that was urgently required for the
completion of some great cosmic design....
It passed; thank God, It passed; and moreover It left me stronger and
wiser than before. Very likely those honest penetrating grey eyes of
my companion detected my fleeting wave of anguish, but he only kept
an eloquent silence; and when a few minutes later I expressed a wish
to descend and interview these alleged Indian wanderers, he offered
neither comment nor opposition.
On reaching the vestibule I found the two foreign traders conversing
amiably with a youthful frock-coated manager, for the fashionable
ladies had evacuated the hall in pursuit of the tea and the music which
were being provided in a distant chamber. At my approach the Indians
took no farther notice of me than by smiling blandly and by indicating
the various articles spread at their feet. Meanwhile the supercilious
young manager addressed me: "Your friend Dr Wayne seems to think we are
encouraging spies or bad characters here; but so far as I can judge,
these men are only Indian hucksters, and several of our ladies are very
pleased with the bargains they have bought this afternoon. What do you
make of them, sir?"
"I believe," said I slowly, envisaging the two Meleagrian nobles,
envoys to our Earth disguised in the mean garments of Oriental
mountebanks, "from their features and their dress these men hail from
the Nicobar Islands, where I once held an official post."
And in the most natural and condescending manner I could command I
straightway began to question the two smiling pseudo-merchants in
Meleagrian.
"Are you here in order to kill me?"