Meleager : $b A fantasy — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Meleager : $b A fantasy
John Stuart Mill · en
I acquiesced in silence. It was astounding to me to learn that so
much was known of my most private concerns, and I saw little use in
arguing or asking questions. It was evident too that Fajal regarded my
return to Meleager as a settled matter past all debate, and this mental
admission induced in me a welcome sense of peace and deliverance.
Thus we stood on this misty solemn October afternoon beside the grey
placid sea, surely the most extraordinary pair of mortals--if as
mortals we could be faithfully so described--on the surface of the
globe. No sound save the regular silvery tinkle of the tiny waves
lapping on the beach and an occasional movement from the stolid
cart-horse beside us broke the spell of oppressive stillness, so that
when finally Fajal spoke, his voice seemed to proceed from some far-off
unseen place, which had no connection with our present environment.
"Has your Majesty no other aim than to escape the terrors of the grave
in thus deciding once more to exchange your Mother Earth for Meleager?
Do the loyalty and the prayers of your subjects weigh as nothing in the
scales of your predilection? Has your abandoned palace no remembered
charms? Our temple bells, our sunlit city, our shining harbour, our
dawns and our sunsets, do these count for naught? O King, have none
of the fibres of your once generous heart struck root in our soil?
Have you already forgotten your splendour, your kingdom, your people,
your friends in these few weeks spent upon your blood-soaked insurgent
Earth?"
With a look of sorrowful reproach accompanying these words of rebuke,
Fajal bade me examine a small tablet of crystal or of some transparent
substance that he held in the hollow of his left hand. I gladly lowered
my ashamed and burning face in its direction, but could perceive no
more than a mass of variegated colours that seemed to be perpetually
shifting and changing. I strained my eyes for long, vainly seeking to
identify any of the minute objects thus depicted, till at last I ceased
from the attempt in despair of success. With a sigh of resignation,
Fajal now presented me with a pair of large horn-rimmed spectacles,
which I adjusted to my eyes, with the immediate result that the scenes
in the crystal seemed enlarged and clarified. I saw distinctly my
palace at Tamarida with the warm sunbeams flickering on marble pillars
and dancing in golden bars on the frescoed vaulting; I saw the gardens,
cool and umbrageous, with their many fountains spurting their foamy
jets upon the drenched fronds of fern and palm; I saw my aery balcony
with its table of audience and faithful Hiridia standing disconsolate
beside my favourite chair; under the external awnings of blue and
yellow I saw the deep purple line of the harbour beyond the enclosing
balustrade. A veritable wave of nostalgia seemed to engulph me, as I
watched thus every familiar scene of my Meleagrian existence pass in
procession before my gaze.