From the date of her death I devoted myself with increased ardour to
my duties, whilst I occupied my many spare hours in studying with
care and intelligence such literature as deals with the cult of the
supernatural, which has always possessed a singular fascination for
my mind, and has, I feel sure, helped me to sustain with equanimity
hitherto so many slings and arrows of outrageous fortune on this
Earth. The years rolled by, so that in due course I became eligible
for my retiring pension, yet even then I was in no haste to turn my
back on the East, where I had passed practically the whole of my life
since adolescence, for during thirty-seven years of service I had only
twice returned home on short leave. And now, when in professional
decency and according to the custom of my caste I was expected to
resign, I felt small inclination to revisit my native land, where the
only contemporary relative I owned was a married sister living at
Aberdeen. Of my various nephews and nieces I knew nothing, and I felt
a not unnatural dread of being exploited or patronised by a coterie
of self-satisfied young persons of the present generation. At times I
thought of migrating to some sparsely peopled British colony, such as
Western Australia or Tasmania, where the advent of an elderly widower
might possibly be welcome, if only as tending to swell the meagre tale
of the approaching census. I was still hesitating and pondering, when
in July 1914 the tedious question was solved for me rather arbitrarily
in the following manner.