Meleager : $b A fantasy — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Meleager : $b A fantasy
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the nobility this formal hiding of the face is more strictly insisted
on, if only as a detail of good breeding. From what I have seen, the
young women of Meleager are short, dark and comely, with fine brown
merry eyes, small features, and dark hair. In extreme youth they are
often remarkably pretty and attractive, but after child-birth they
are very liable to lose their elegant symmetry, and to find what was
an agreeable plumpness exchanged for a rather prominent bulkiness of
figure.
I have never yet so much as spoken to a woman below the age of thirty
or thereabouts, and though the fundamental law forbidding my intimacy
with any woman in the pride and beauty of her youth is quite wise and
logical, according both to the letter and the spirit of Meleagrian
state craft, yet it is a rule that presses very cruelly upon myself.
For remember, _I_ do not grow old and languid; my own vitality is
mysteriously renewed at short intervals, and male youth craves the
society and companionship of female youth; whilst also in my case this
natural desire can never diminish with the passing of the years. In
this respect I stand therefore betwixt the devil and the deep sea,
between Scylla and Charybdis. On the one hand, I have to curb my
juvenile longings and tastes which tend rather to grow stronger and
more insistent; whilst on the other, any attempt to circumvent this
ordinance of the hierarchy would not only end in my own discomfiture,
and possibly removal, but would most certainly result in the miserable
fate of any poor favourite of my choice. The story of silly Anata's
disgrace was not invented by the hierarchy merely to serve as an empty
fable, one may be sure of that. I feel convinced, too, that the palace
teems with spies for this very purpose of thwarting any such intrigue,
and though hitherto I have given no cause even for suspicion, I feel
my position most acutely. It is so false, and I know it to be false,
and so do those who have manœuvred this particular piece of policy
concerning their monarch.