Memoirs of a millionaire — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Memoirs of a millionaire
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“Not so fast, my dear,” she said, forestalling me. “Pray don’t imagine
that I am bereft of my senses, and propose to reform the slums by giving
them free access to a gallery of casts from the antique. It would
require a small army of policemen and scrubbing-women to preserve it in
decent condition, if the rabble were admitted indiscriminately, and I do
not propose to give people that form of beauty which they do not want
and could not possibly appreciate.”
“But you blame all the rich, who, no matter how much they may give away,
still reserve enough to buy steam yachts and build fine houses and
indulge their æsthetic tastes to the extent of one thirtieth of their
fortune,” I said pettishly.
“No,” said Mildred, slowly; “I do not blame them. I am not their judge.
I cannot speak for others: it is right, more than that, it is necessary,
that man should create beauty, for he cannot live by bread alone.
“But I cannot help feeling that the beauty should be for all; should be
where all may see and enjoy it. The old Greeks were right about that,
when the temples, the agora, the gymnasia were consecrated to beauty,
and it was the glory of the rich to minister to the state and not spend
lavish sums in collecting private treasures.
“No, dear. Once I thought to have all that was rich and fine, and that
could delight the eye, around me in my own home. I felt that I had a
right to it, provided that I thought of others first and most. But now I
see things differently. I wonder that I ever could have been so selfish.
“Yes, Ruby,” she added, almost sternly, as she saw my look of protest,
“it was selfishness. I meant, in spite of all my giving, to sacrifice
nothing. But I have been trying these last few months,—yes, since that
time last summer when my power to make life better for others seemed
about to be forever taken from me,—I have been trying, and Ralph has
helped me, oh, so much, to look at all this short life of ours in its
beginning here on this little planet, as I shall look back upon it with
the eyes of eternity, when it has all gone into the irrevocable past.
How will it seem then, little sister, when all our foolish ambitions and
traditions and false social standards have been swept away? Shall I be
glad or sorry then, do you think, to remember that the one talent which
was placed in my hands was used to its utmost, that nothing was withheld
but what was needed to make me the better fitted for my work? Ah, when
my naked soul shall stand before the judgment bar of its own conscience
and the moral law, and hears the sentence, ‘This ought ye to have done,
and not to have left the other undone,’ what shall I plead in excuse?”