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“Yes, once. It was brought to the house, but she took little notice of
it, and said it belonged to the _Greys_, not to _her_. We think now she
was crazy then, though they did not suspect it at the time. She
expressed no regret whatever when Arthur left her, but on the contrary
seemed relieved to have him go. He sailed for Europe the next week, and
was gone a year and a half, or more. Laura wrote to him quite regularly
at first, but never held any communication with Beechwood. After a while
there was a break in her letters, and when at last she wrote she told
him something of which he had no suspicion at the time of his leaving
home. He ought to have come back to her then, but he did not, though he
sent her money and advised her to return to Beechwood. This she would
not do. She preferred to stay with her mother, she said; and he heard no
more from her for three or four months, when she wrote a few hurried
lines, telling him her baby _Madeline_ died when she was four weeks old,
and adding that she presumed he would not care, as it would save him the
trouble of taking the child from her as he had taken Alice. That roused
him a little to a sense of his duty, and he wrote kindly to her and told
her he was sorry, and advised her again to return to Beechwood, where he
said he would join her. To this she did not reply for a long time, and
when at last she wrote she said that her mother was dead, and that after
visiting a friend she was going back to Beechwood. The next he heard
from her she was here at Beechwood, where she had arrived wholly
unexpected by mother and Clarissa, who did not know that she was coming,
and who judged that she must have been weeks on the road. Her baggage
was lost, and she had nothing with her but a little satchel, in which
was a child’s dress and a few other articles. She was dressed in black,
and told them her mother was dead, but said nothing of the child of
whose birth they had never heard, she having insisted that Arthur should
not tell them of it. She was very quiet for a few days, never speaking
unless spoken to, and then she did not always answer. Occasionally they
heard her muttering to herself, ‘One is dead, and one is safe. They will
never find it,—never,’ but what she meant, they could not guess.
“Alice was spending a few days with her foster-mother up the river, and
did not return till Laura had been home a week. In all that time she had
never mentioned her child, and when at last she came, and Clarissa said
to her, ‘Your baby is here, Laura. Would you like to see her?’ she
sprang to her feet and her eyes glared like a maniac’s.
“‘Baby was hid,’ she said. ‘Baby was gone where they could not find it.’
“Then her mood changed, and she raved for the baby till Alice was
brought to her; but that only made her worse, and she became perfectly
furious, telling them this was not the baby whom she had lost, and whom
she insisted upon their finding.