This was Magdalen’s letter, which she handed to Guy in her father’s
presence when she went to say good-night to the two gentlemen in the
parlor.
“Will you write to Mr. Irving, too?” she asked Mr. Grey, who shook his
head, while a look of embarrassment and pain flitted across his face.
“Not now,—some time perhaps I may. I am truly grateful to him, and Guy
must tell him so. Guy will know just what to say. I leave it in his
hands.”
Mr. Grey was not quite like himself that night, and when next morning
Magdalen met him at breakfast, he still seemed abstracted and
absent-minded, and but little inclined to talk. When breakfast was over,
however, he went with her to her room, and sitting down beside her
grasped her hands in his, and said:
“Magdalen, my child, I never expected to see this day,—never thought
there was so much happiness in store for me,—a happiness I have not
deserved, and which still is not unmixed with pain and humiliation.
Magdalen, my daughter,” he continued, “there is something between us
which should not be between a father and his child. I feel it in your
manners, and see it in your face, and hear it in your voice. What is it,
Magdalen?”
He was talking very kindly, and sadly too, and the tears glittered in
Magdalen’s eyes, but she did not reply. She could not tell him all the
hard things she had written against him in her heart, before she knew
him to be her father, but he guessed them in part, and continued:
“Penelope told you something of your mother’s story. I wonder if she
told you all?”
“Yes, all that I ever care to hear,” Magdalen replied. “I know of her
clandestine marriage, her wretched life at Beechwood, of their taking
Alice from her, and of—of your cruel neglect of her.”
She said the last hesitatingly, for there was something in the blue eyes
fastened upon her which prevented her saying as hard things as she felt.
“Yes, it’s all true, and more,” Mr. Grey replied. “Penelope could not
tell you as bad as it was, for she never knew all. I did neglect your
mother when she needed me the most. I liked my ease. I could not endure
scenes. I was afraid of mother. I acted a coward’s part, and Laura
suffered for it. She was beautiful once,—oh, so beautiful when I first
met her in her sweet young girlhood! She was much like you, and I loved
her as well as I was capable of loving then. I had been thwarted and
crossed, and had done things for which I have always been sorry, but
never as sorry as since I have known you were my child, for there is
something in your face which seems continually to reproach me for the
past, and until I have made you my confession, I feel that there cannot
be perfect confidence between us. I think I had seen you before you came
to Beechwood.”
“Yes, in Belvidere, at Mrs. Irving’s grave, though I did not know who
you were. I had not heard of you _then_.”
She knew about Jessie,—Mr. Grey was sure of that, and with something
between a sigh and a groan, he said: