Milly: At Love's Extremes; A Romance of the Southland — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Milly: At Love's Extremes; A Romance of the Southland
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Here Milly White had been born and here she had lived to grow from
babyhood to womanhood, a wild growth, like that of the native trees,
plants and birds. Physically she was beautiful to look upon, if in
looking one could separate the physical from the other form of human
beauty; but she was strictly a product of Sand Mountain, the last
refinement of its productive forces, no doubt, approaching as near
the perfect as nature, working within such limitations and under such
hopeless restrictions, could get. It would be impossible to give in
words any fair idea of her beauty or of her ignorance; to attempt
either would appear like exaggeration. The painter would succeed no
better, for his representation could reach no further than pathetic
caricature. Her life, her condition and her surroundings composed an
instance not far out of the common in Sand Mountain existence. Her
beauty, it is true, was exceptional, as beauty is in all cases, her
ignorance was somewhat denser than the average, and her experience on
Reynolds' account, had compassed its utmost possibility of disturbing
force. In so far as her vision could go, she peered into the
paradise coveted by all girls, and dreamed the dreams of unselfish
love. Every evening she went down to the little gate and leaned upon
it, watching long and patiently for the coming of a man, as other
women do, and every morning she renewed the vigil for a time, and the
evening and the morning were a day. She had but a vague
understanding of things too vaguely understood by all girls, and she
made of Reynolds no more a god than most young women do of the men
they love. She could not realize her danger and she felt but
indefinitely how much she was risking. As days and weeks dragged by
and John did not come, she showed signs of nervous restlessness; but
she said little. Her health, instead of failing, as might have been
expected, seemed to improve. Her face filled out to full womanly
proportions, her cheeks gathering rich tints of rose and carmine, her
eyes softening and dilating as if with the wonder of some sweet,
strange discovery. She hovered, as a butterfly about a flower, over
the things in Reynolds' room. For hours she would sit before the
sketch on the easel and gaze dreamily, half forlornly at it. She
arranged and re-arranged the books, the chairs, the little worn
foot-stool, the slippers, the dressing-gown, creeping about as
noiselessly as if she feared the least sound might break her reverie.
She was lonely, despondent and nervous at times, but she did not
complain. White exhausted over and over again his stock of ingenuity
in inventing excuses for "thet ther Colonel," who, he insisted, was
"a hevin' of sech a roarin' ole time, a shootin' of birds an' a
drinkin' of liquor an' a playin' of them ther new-fangled games of
keerds." White himself had grown strangely uneasy in his manner and
his eyes had lost somewhat of their humorous light. It was beginning