New York: Its Upper Ten and Lower Million — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
New York: Its Upper Ten and Lower Million
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"I am here, with some friends," I faltered. "My father could not come
with me--and--"
Between the kisses which he planted upon the lips of his betrothed--(so
he thought)--he explained his unexpected appearance at Niagara. At
Havana he had received the letter from my father, desiring him to
hasten, on important business, to the city of Mexico. He had obeyed,
and accomplished his mission sooner than he anticipated; had left Vera
Cruz for New Orleans; taken steamboat for Cincinnati, and from thence
to Cleveland, and across the lake to Buffalo and Niagara Falls.
"And now I'm on my way home, Marion," he concluded. "What a pleasant
surprise it will be for father!"
"I am married, Walter."--The words were on my lips, but I could not
speak them.
We rose, and, arm in arm, wandered over the bridge, up the steep, and
through the winding walks of Goat Island. Leaning on the arm of Walter,
I forgot everything but that he loved me and that he was with me. I
did not dare to think that to-morrow's light would disclose to him the
truth--that I was married, and to another. At length, as we approached
the bridge which leads from the Island to the shore, I said--"Leave me
Walter; we must not be seen to return together. To-morrow you can call
upon me, when I am in presence of my--friends."
One passionate embrace was exchanged, and I watched him, as he crossed
the bridge alone, until he was out of sight. Why, I knew not, but an
impulse for which I could not account, induced me to retrace my steps
to Luna Island. In a few moments I had crossed the bridge (connecting
Iris with Luna Island,) and stood once more on the Cataract's brink,
under the same tree where an hour before I had discovered Walter. Oh,
the agony of that moment, as, gazing over the falls, I called up my
whole life, my blighted prospect, and my future without one ray of
hope! Should I advance, but a single step, and bury my shame and my
sorrows beneath the cataract? Once dead, Walter would at least respect
my memory, while living he could only despise and abhor me.
While thoughts like these flashed over my brain, my ear was saluted
with the chorus of a drinking song, hummed in an uneven and tremulous
voice; and, in a moment my husband passed before me, with an unsteady
step. He was confused and excited by the fumes of champagne.
Approaching the verge of the island--but a few feet from the verge of
the cataract--where the waters look smooth and glassy, as they are
about to take the last plunge, he stood gazing, now at the torrent, now
at the moon, with a vague, half-drunken stare.
That moment decided my life!