New York: Its Upper Ten and Lower Million — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
New York: Its Upper Ten and Lower Million
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"Why, Doctor, I am glad to see you!" she cried, as Doctor Arthur Conroy
entered her room; "I haven't clapped eyes upon you for a dog's age.
Why, bless me, how changed you are!"
As Conroy flung his cloak upon a chair, and advancing to the light,
seated himself opposite the Madam, it was evident that he was indeed
changed. His eyes were dull and heavy, his cheeks bloated; the marks
of days and nights spent in sensual excess, were upon every lineament
of his once noble face. A sad, a terrible change! Can this man who
sits before us, with his coat buttoned to the chin, and his heavy eyes
rolling vacantly in his bloated countenance, be the same Arthur Conroy
whom we first beheld in the lonely hour of his student vigil, his eyes
dilating with a noble ambition, his forehead stamped with thought, with
genius?
"I am changed," he said sullenly and with a thick utterance; "let me
have some brandy."
The Madam, without a word, produced a bottle and a glass. Conroy filled
the glass half-full, and drank it, undiluted with water, and without
removing the glass from his lips.
And then his faded eyes began to flash and his cheek to glow.
It was the most melancholy kind of intemperance--that which drinks
alone, and drinks in silence, and, instead of rousing the social
feelings, or the grotesque fancies of drunken mirth, calls up the
images of the past, and bids them feed upon the soul.
"Good brandy that! It warms the blood!"
"Why, Conroy, I have not seen you since you brought Godiva here, and
that is a year and I don't know how many months ago."
"May God,"--he ended the sentence with an awful imprecation upon the
very name of Godiva. And his face grew wild with hatred.
"Why I thought she was a favorite of yours, or you of hers," said the
Madam.
"By ----! I wish I had buried my knife in her heart, as she lay on the
dissecting table before me!" he cried, his voice hoarse with emotion.
"Look at me! When first I met that woman I was studious, ambitious; the
thought of my mother and two sisters, who depended upon my efforts,
stirred me into superhuman exertion. Well!--It is not _quite_ a
_century_ since I met that woman, and look at me now--a gambler--a
drunkard; yes," he struck the table with his fist--"Arthur Conroy
is come to that! My mother dead, of a broken heart, and my sisters,
well!--my sisters--"
As he tried to choke down his emotion, his features worked as with a
spasm.
"Well! never mind!--and the accursed woman, whom I brought to your
house, in order to kill the fruits of her passion,--she is the cause of
all,--"
The light which left the greater part of the room in shadow, fell
strongly over the florid face of the Madam, manifesting vague
astonishment; and the flushed visage of Conroy, working with violent
emotions.