Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7
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"Things end, Miriam, so that other things may begin."
She roused herself to give battle. But Alma drifted between, crying
gaily that there was tomorrow. A good strong tomorrow. Warranted to
stand hard wear.
"And turn; and take a dye when you're tired of the colour."
He laughed, really amused? Or crediting her with an attempt to talk in a
code?
"A tomorrow that will wear forever and make a petticoat afterwards."
He laughed again. Quite simply. He had not heard that old jest. Seemed
never to have heard the old family jests. Seemed to have grown up
without jests.... Tomorrow, unless no one came, would not be like today.
* * * * *
The morning offered a blissful eternity before lunch. She had wakened
drowsy with strength and the apprehension of good, and gone through
breakfast like a sleepwalker, playing her part without cost, independent
of sight and hearing and thought. Successful. Dreamily watching a play,
taking a part inaudibly dictated, without effort, seeing it turn into
the chief part, more and more turned over to her as she lay still in the
hands of the invisible prompter; withdrawn in an exploration of the
features of this state of being that nothing could reach or disturb. If,
this time, she could discover its secret, she would be launched in it
forever.
Back in her room she prepared swiftly to go out and meet the day in the
open; all the world, waiting in the happy garden.... Through the
house-stillness sounded three single downward-stepping notes ... the
first phrase of the seventh symphony.... Perfect. Eternity stating
itself in the stillness. He knew it, choosing just this thing to play to
himself, alone; living in space alone, at one with everybody, as
everyone was, the moment life allowed. Beethoven's perfect expression of
the perfection of life, first thing in the morning. Morning stillness;
single dreaming notes that blossomed in it and left it undisturbed;
moved on into a pattern and then stood linked together in a single
perfect chord. Another pattern in the same simple notes and another
chord. Dainty little chords bowing to each other; gentle gestures that
gradually became an angelic little dance through which presently a song
leapt forth, the single opening notes brought back, caught up and swept
into song pealing rapturously out.