Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7
John Stuart Mill · en
But a Russian idealist ... would not be shocked, but would be
appallingly clever and difficult. All the topics which now came tumbling
into her mind shrank back in silence before Madame Lintoff's
intellectual oblivion. It was more oppressive than the oblivion of the
intellectual English. Theirs was a small, hard, bright circle. Within it
they were self-conscious. Hers was an impersonal spreading darkness....
They were nearing Oxford Circus. There were more people strolling along
the pavement. For quite a little time they were separated by the passing
of two scattered groups, straggling along, with hoarse cockney shouting,
the women yodelling and yelling at everything they saw. The reprieve
brought them together again, Miriam felt, with something rescued; a
feeling of accomplishment. Madame Lintoff's voice came hurriedly--Was
she noticing the Salvation Army Band, thumping across the Circus; or
this young man getting into a hansom as if the whole world were watching
him being importantly headlong?--mournfully came a rounded little
sentence deploring the Sunday closing of the theatres.... She would have
neatly deplored September.... Je trouve cela _triste_, l'automne.
But thrilled by the sudden sounding of the little voice, Miriam tried
eagerly to see London through her eyes; to find it a pity that the
theatres were not open. She agreed, and turned her mind to the plays
that were on at the moment. She could not imagine Madame Lintoff at any
one of them. But their bright week-day names lost meaning in the Sunday
atmosphere; drew back to their own place, and insisted that she should
find a defence for its quiet emptiness. They themselves defended it,
these English theatre names, gathering much of their colour and
brightness from the weekly lull. But the meaning of the lull lay much
deeper than the need for contrast; deeper than the reasons given by
sabbatarians, whom it was a joy to defy, though they were right. It was
something that was as difficult to defend as the qualities of the
English weather.
This Russian woman was also a continental, sharing the awful continental
demand that the week-day things should never cease; dependent all the
time on revolving sets of outside things ... and the modern English were
getting more and more into the same state. In a few years Sunday would
be "bright"; full of everyday noise. Unless someone could find words to
explain the thing all these people called _dullness_; what it was they
were so briskly smothering. Without the undiscoverable words, it could
not be spoken of. An imagined attempt brought mocking laughter and the
sound of a Bloomsbury voice: "Vous n'savez pas quand vous vous rasez,
hein?" Madame Lintoff would not be vulgar; but she would share the
sentiment....