Saul of Tarsus: A Tale of the Early Christians — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Saul of Tarsus: A Tale of the Early Christians
John Stuart Mill · en
THE DELIVERANCE
There followed time for diverse and earnest meditation for Marsyas: He
criticized himself sarcastically, for permitting himself to be so
easily entrapped, and cast about him for means of escape. He found by
successive trials that the siege was perfect. Half of Alexandria's
garrison had been posted about the district. The more he considered
his predicament, the more an atmosphere of impending danger weighted
the air of the Nazarene community.
He did not seek the hospitality of the Nazarenes, because he had not
come to the point of admitting that he was to remain among them. At
nightfall, while the roar of the reveling city without swept over the
community, he hoped to find some unguarded spot in the Roman lines, but
his hope was vain. With his attention thus forced upon the people
penned in with him, he began to wonder if there might not yet be some
profit in counsel with his fellows, hemmed in for some purpose by
Flaccus.
He found the inhabitants gathered in a broad space in one of the
streets, where at one time a statue or a fountain might have stood, but
after a few minutes' listening, he heard only prayers and words of
submission to the unknown peril threatening them. Angry and
disappointed he flung himself away from the gathering, to spend the
night in the streets.
But after the first gust of his anger, it was brought home to him very
strongly, that these people were gifted with a new courage, the courage
of submission--to him the most mysterious and impossible of powers.
Led from this idle conclusion into yet deeper contemplation of the
Nazarene character, he found himself admitting astonishing evidences in
their favor. He had known not a few of them. Stephen had been
beatified, the most exalted, yet the sweetest character that he had
ever known. Lydia, wavering and hesitating between Judaism and the
faith of Jesus of Nazareth, struggled with fine points of conscience,
and persisted, in the face of terror,--the most potent controlling
agent, Marsyas had believed, over the spirit of womanhood. The
Nazarene body at Ptolemais had displayed before him a humanness in
subjection, that, in spite of his own resolute disposition, seemed
triumphant, after all. They had preached peace, and had maintained it
in the face of the most trying circumstances. On ship-board, he had
been shown that they were long-suffering. About him now, while
Alexandria rioted and reveled in excess, their order and decorum were
highly attractive. These were excellences that he did not willingly
see; circumstances and environment had forced their recognition upon
him.
At a late hour, he was sought and found by their pastor, the tall old
teacher, whom he had come to consider as a man whom, for his own
spiritual welfare, he should shun.