"Thy love?" she repeated softly, with a question in her tone. But he
did not answer it.
"A hopeless tangle," she said at last, "from which our ruling
philosophers, degenerate imitators of Pyrrho, offer but one escape.
Turn from it, cease to trouble over it, leave it, cast off all thought
and memory of it--and begin anew!"
He shook his head, his eyes on the pavement, his hands clasped before
him. But the primrose hand found his again.
"Thou canst not, by the choicest revenge, force Thanatos to yield up
thy dead; thou confessest the evil thou workest in revenge as equal to
the satisfaction; thou complainest that thy love is faithless--what
else? So many thy pains, I can not remember them all; but in them all
there is not the worth of one of thy sleepless nights. If thou canst
not be a Spartan, be a Stoic; if not an avenger, then a forgetter; if
not a lover, then a gallant! Above all things, harken unto a pagan
truth: love's a lusty wight and can suffer forty mortal wounds and love
again. None but an ostrich loves but once! Perchance I was right at
first; thou shouldst have begun thine education in the first of Flora's
celebration."
He winced, but presently raised his head.
"What didst thou when the procession carried me away that night?" he
demanded, searching her face.
"When thou didst go away with the procession?" she laughed. "I went
with them--of a necessity."
"And how didst thou escape?"
"When they all departed after Flora danced."
Thus beyond doubt assured that she had witnessed the dance of Flora, he
was afraid to inquire further, lest he betray Lydia. But he wanted
mightily to know if she had recognized the alabarch's daughter.
The disturbing reflection diverted his line of thought. Many of the
night's events which the greater one had overshadowed came back to him.
He saw again the miraculous dance of Brahma on the roof of the Temple
of Rannu, fled again with Lydia in his arms into the musky shrine and
thence into the city; strove hard to convince himself that if he,
sharpened of sight by love, had not recognized Lydia except for the
bayadere's note and his acquaintance with Lydia's apostasy and her
former defense of the Nazarenes, others could not have done so. Again
he fought with Flaccus and discovered Agrippa in the dark and abandoned
street in Alexandria. And now the image of Eutychus became
particularly distinct.
His brow blackened suddenly and he sprang to his feet.
"It is solved!" he cried, striking the palm of one hand with the other.
"By the wrath of God, he is Flaccus' emissary. He turned on Agrippa in
Alexandria when Flaccus ambushed the prince! He was part of the
conspiracy! It was no blind blow that Agrippa struck. And the soul in
me nourishes a lie or he meditates more work for the proconsul in this!"
Throughout his intensely confident accusation, Junia had watched him
with changing eyes. She had had to feel her way frequently in this
last hour.
"What?" she asked finally.