Strictly Business: More Stories of the Four Million — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Strictly Business: More Stories of the Four Million
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“There was,” she said. “You wanted me. And you could have had me, as
you very well know.”
Without replying, Ives let his gaze wander slowly about the room. There
had been no change in it since last he had been in it, three years
before. He vividly recalled the thoughts that had been in his mind
then. The contents of that room were as fixed, in their way, as the
everlasting hills. No change would ever come there except the
inevitable ones wrought by time and decay. That silver-mounted album
would occupy that corner of that table, those pictures would hang on
the walls, those chairs be found in their same places every morn and
noon and night while the household hung together. The brass andirons
were monuments to order and stability. Here and there were relics of a
hundred years ago which were still living mementos and would be for
many years to come. One going from and coming back to that house would
never need to forecast or doubt. He would find what he left, and leave
what he found. The veiled lady, Chance, would never lift her hand to
the knocker on the outer door.
And before him sat the lady who belonged in the room. Cool and sweet
and unchangeable she was. She offered no surprises. If one should pass
his life with her, though she might grow white-haired and wrinkled, he
would never perceive the change. Three years he had been away from her,
and she was still waiting for him as established and constant as the
house itself. He was sure that she had once cared for him. It was the
knowledge that she would always do so that had driven him away. Thus
his thoughts ran.
“I am going to be married soon,” said Mary.
On the next Thursday afternoon Forster came hurriedly to Ive’s hotel.
“Old man,” said he, “we’ll have to put that dinner off for a year or
so; I’m going abroad. The steamer sails at four. That was a great talk
we had the other night, and it decided me. I’m going to knock around
the world and get rid of that incubus that has been weighing on both
you and me—the terrible dread of knowing what’s going to happen. I’ve
done one thing that hurts my conscience a little; but I know it’s best
for both of us. I’ve written to the lady to whom I was engaged and
explained everything—told her plainly why I was leaving—that the
monotony of matrimony would never do for me. Don’t you think I was
right?”