The earnestness of her manner, the tears which dimmed her eyes and were with difficulty restrained, affected him deeply. He realised that the barrier which stood between them was insuperable as she saw it; but he was far from satisfied that she was right. Why in later years should the question of the children's parentage arise? He would take them away from Africa, and adopt them legally. He endeavoured to explain this to her. Pamela listened quietly; but he felt that he failed in convincing her. "It is dear of you," she said, and pressed his hand. "But there is only one way in which I can hope to retrieve my mistake. I can't help thinking that it is best for your sake that I cannot do what you ask. The past clings to a woman. She never succeeds in burying it. I love you for loving me. I love you for wanting to marry me in spite of all you know. It is difficult for me to refuse; but it is better so." "Oh! Pamela," he said; "you are just racking me. My happiness is bound up in you. I've nursed my love for you hopelessly for years, until everything else has become subordinated to it. It's part of myself. And now that you have it in your power to grant what I ask, you refuse. I want you, and you won't come to me." "Don't make it harder for me," she pleaded. "It isn't easy to refuse. Can't you see, dear, I don't belong to myself any longer? I belong to the man who took my life and threw it aside when he had no further use for it. He has had the best of me,--my youth--my love." He winced. "Yes. I loved him once--passionately. I didn't believe it possible that I could ever love any one as I loved him. But I love you... not in the same way." She leaned towards him, and her eyes shone mistily, like sapphires gleaming in some translucent pool. "I was always a little afraid of him. Perfect love does not know fear. I wish I could marry you; but it isn't possible... I belong to him--the father of my children. I've got to live for the children now. Their claim on me counts above every other consideration." He drew her nearer to him by the hands he still held clasped in his, and looked steadily into her face. "And if he refuses?" he said hoarsely... "Pamela, if he refuses to agree to your demand?" Pamela's eyes lingered on his for a while, the doubt which his question aroused calling up a dread of numberless possibilities. "Oh!" she said, and paused dismayed. "He can't refuse," she added in strained sharpened tones. She turned her head aside, and quite suddenly, without premonition, she was weeping in a furtive, frightened fashion that was immensely disconcerting to Dare. Her tears stabbed him. He got up and wandered away to the window and stood with his back to her in an attitude of deep dejection. A tormenting remorse gripped him. "He can't refuse," he said reassuringly. "That will be all right. He can't on the face of things refuse..." CHAPTER TWENTY TWO.