She flushed hotly and withdrew from the encircling arm.
"You must never say a thing like that to me again," she said.
Arnott merely smiled. The cloak once discarded can never be resumed as
an effective disguise. He had summed her up in his mind and placed her
to his entire satisfaction. She was no more sincere and no less
vulnerable than the rest of her sex. Arnott held women cheaply in his
thoughts, as men of his disposition are wont to do. The only woman
whose cold virtue had opposed his libertine nature was his wife in
England; and he hated her memory even.
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN.
That night Blanche sat up late in the little bedroom leading out from
the room where the children slept. She sat at the open window, leaning
with her arms on the sill, looking out at the sea. The moon silvered
the waters and touched the lazy waves where they folded over before
breaking upon the sands with a white darting flame, like liquid fire
glancing from wave to wave. The murmur of the sea was in her ears, and
a warm salt breeze blew in through the opening and stirred the heavy
tresses of dark hair that, unloosened, fell about her bare shoulders in
becoming disarray. Seen thus, with the light of the moon upon it, the
calm face, in its dark setting, was strangely alluring, almost
disturbingly beautiful. The discontent in the sombre eyes, the weary
droop of her pose, lent a pathos that harmonised with the surroundings,
with the serene lonely beauty of the night, and the restless murmur of
the sea.
Beneath the outward quiet of her bearing, a ferment of passionate
emotions stirred incessantly. The girl's spirit was in fierce revolt;
all the pride in her nature was up in arms. Certain things which Arnott
had said to her on their walk that evening brought the angry blood
surging to her cheeks merely to recall. She realised clearly that to
remain in her present position in his household and keep her
self-respect was impossible; to do so after what had passed were to give
him the right to insult her. And yet she did not want to leave. The
man exercised a hypnotic fascination over her. He was the only man who
had ever made love to her,--who possessed the power to quicken her
pulses, and bring a gladness and a softened look into her eyes. She
believed she loved him. In an undisciplined, passionate way she did
love him. He satisfied the hunger-ache in her heart. He was the sole
human being to discover in her qualities to admire and like. No one,
man or woman, had found her sufficiently attractive to desire her
friendship. Blanche hated her own sex, and for the greater part
despised men. For Arnott she experienced a kind of shrinking respect.
She admired his strength and virility, his temperamental and
intellectual force; even his position as a man of wealth and social
standing appealed to the latent ambition of her avaricious nature.
Because of these advantages which she enjoyed as his wife, she envied
Pamela bitterly.