The Black Forge Mills : $b or, Up the King's highway
John Stuart Mill · en
"I arise to-night not because I can testify to the saving grace of the
Lord Jesus Christ. I know nothing about it. In fact, I do not even
understand it. I believe intellectually in the existence of a God, and
in Jesus Christ as his Son. I am willing to admit that, the Bible is
his book. Farther than that, I cannot honestly say I am now prepared to
go. But I would like to know what it is to have Jesus for an intimate
and personal friend, such as many here to-night have testified he is to
them. I would like to know that I am saved. I would give all I am worth
to-night to know that peace which is said to pass all understanding."
He paused, and made as though he would sit down; then he went on,
hurriedly:
"For weeks, yea months, I have been in a state of unrest. Ever since
the day the leader of this meeting had the courage to speak to me in
my office in defense of his Lord, I may say I have had no peace. The
burden is getting too great for me to bear. I feel I must have light
soon, or I shall sink in sheer despair."
Amid a marked stillness that had fallen over the meeting at this
unexpected circumstance, some one began to pray. It was Mr. Gage, the
pastor, who had entered the room in time to hear Mr. Grafton's words.
When his fervent appeal that God would give this man light for Jesus'
sake had ended, and the meeting had closed, Mr. Grafton thanked the
pastor somewhat haughtily for the interest he had manifested for him,
and immediately left the room. When Ray entered the street, however, he
found the merchant waiting for him.
"Mr. Branford," he asked, "are you willing I should walk up to the
academy with you?"
Ray gladly consented, and they walked on for a short distance in
silence. When far enough from all others to be unheard, the great man
inquired:
"Would it be asking too much, Mr. Branford, for you to tell me as
simply as possible how I am to be saved?"
This man, who had been so haughty when in the presence of others, was
very humble now.
"Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved," replied
Ray, quickly. And then he silently asked the Master to help him in
leading this anxious soul to him.
"Yes; I know," said the merchant. "I have studied those words for
weeks. But what do they mean to you?"
"Taking Christ at his word; accepting just what he offers. He tells us
that he came to die as our substitute, and, if we will only believe it,
he will hold that relation to us. We are to believe it, and show our
faith by living up to the fact," said Ray.
The word "substitute" caught Mr. Grafton's attention.
"Substitute!" he exclaimed. "How is he our substitute? How can he be?
That is just where my difficulty lies."