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"Hard as it is, my darling," he said, "to fulfill that pledge, I must
do it. I dare not do otherwise. In fact, lest I should waver again in
my resolve, I immediately wrote the mission board, and am now appointed
to my old field, to sail the coming October. I have placed myself under
the instruction of a returned missionary, and shall prepare myself, as
far as possible, during the intervening months for my life work. I know
that you, painful as our separation will be, will nevertheless approve
of my decision. As you once said, I by God's grace can now say, 'Though
I cannot understand, yet I can trust him.'"
The fair face was perhaps a trifle paler, but the voice that answered
him was perfectly steady and almost triumphant in its tones: "It is
all right, Ray. I knew of your struggle. These locks"--and she lightly
brushed his hair--"have told the story of your anguish; but threaded as
they are with gray they are infinitely more precious to me, for they
tell of a victory won over self. Let me tell you too, Ray darling, I do
not believe God has raised me from that sick bed for nothing. You may
have to go out alone and for a time we may be separated. But I believe
the Saviour has called me to that work, and sooner or later I shall
toil by your side. It may seem unmaidenly, but I promise you that when
duty at home is over, I shall hasten across the seas to you, and our
union and our toil will perhaps be worth all the more because we have
made even this our sacrifice for Jesus' sake."
"God bless you for those words, darling; they have given me a hope
that will brighten my toil and make me more willing to undergo the
sacrifice," he replied. And, rising, he bent down over her fair face
and pressed kiss after kiss upon her lips.
"There, that will do, sir," she at length cried, with something of
her old mirth, and struggling for breath; "nothing but the fact that
you are so soon to leave me reconciles me to such prodigality on your
part." Then, with tears coming into her eyes, "You will be with me as
often as possible, Ray? Our long separation will come quickly, and I
am selfish enough to want you with me every moment you can spare until
then."
"I will come down as often as possible until September," he answered.
"Then I will come here, and remain until the hour of my departure is at
hand."
He went back to Easton the next morning happier, notwithstanding the
approaching separation from Daisy, than he had been for months. He
was in the line of duty again, and once more he was conscious of the
Spirit's presence and power.