The Count's Millions — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Count's Millions
John Stuart Mill · en
“My course is decided on, monsieur; irrevocably decided on.”
“Very well, madame; but it often happens that the court institutes
inquiries for the heirs of large fortunes, and this may happen in your
case.”
“I should reply that I was not a member of the Chalusse family, and that
would end it. Startled by the news of my brother’s death, I allowed my
secret to escape me. I shall know how to keep it in future.”
Anger succeeded astonishment in M. Fortunat’s mind. “Madame, madame,
what can you be thinking of?” he cried, impetuously. “Accept--in
Heaven’s name--accept this inheritance; if not for yourself, for the
sake of----”
In his excitement, he was about to commit a terrible blunder. He saw it
in time, and checked himself.
“For the sake of whom?” asked Madame d’Argeles, in an altered voice.
“For the sake of Mademoiselle Marguerite, madame; for the sake of this
poor child, who is your niece. The count never having acknowledged her
as his daughter, she will be left actually without bread, while her
father’s millions go to enrich the state.”
“That will suffice, monsieur; I will think of it. And now, enough!”
The dismissal was so imperious that M. Fortunat bowed and went off,
completely bewildered by this denouement. “She’s crazy!” he said to
himself. “Crazy in the fullest sense of the word. She refuses the
count’s millions from a silly fear of telling people that she belongs
to the Chalusse family. She threatened her brother, but she would never
have carried her threats into execution. And she prefers her present
position to such a fortune. What lunacy!” But, although he was
disappointed and angry, he did not by any means despair. “Fortunately
for me,” he thought, “this proud and haughty lady has a son somewhere
in the world. And she’ll do for him what she would not consent to do for
herself. Through her, with a little patience and Victor Chupin’s aid,
I shall succeed in discovering this boy. He must be an intelligent
youth--and we’ll see if he surrenders his millions as easily as his
mamma does.”
XVI.
It is a terrible task to break suddenly with one’s past, without even
having had time for preparation; to renounce the life one has so far
lived, to return to the starting point, and begin existence anew; to
abandon everything--the position one has gained, the work one has become
familiar with, every fondly cherished hope, and friend, and habit; to
forsake the known to plunge into the unknown, to leave the certain for
the uncertain, and desert light for darkness; to cast one’s identity
aside, assume a strange individuality, become a living lie, change name,
position, face, and clothes--in one phrase, to cease to be one’s self,
in order to become some one else.