The Count's Millions — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Count's Millions
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Marguerite’s only reply was a despairing gesture. It would have been
impossible for her to articulate a syllable--her tears were choking her.
What would she not have given to be alone at this moment--to have
been able to abandon herself without constraint to her emotions! Alas!
prudence condemned her to play a part even now. The thought of her
future and her honor lent her strength to submit to the deceitful
consolations of a woman whom she knew to be a dangerous enemy. And the
General’s wife was by no means sparing of her consolatory phrases; in
fact, it was only after a long homily on the uncertainty of life below
that she ventured to approach the subject of her letter of the previous
evening. “For it is necessary to face the inevitable,” she pursued. “The
troublesome realities of life have no respect for our grief. So it is
with you, my dear child; you would find a bitter pleasure in giving vent
to your sorrow, but you are compelled to think of your future. As M. de
Chalusse has no heirs, this house will be closed--you can remain here no
longer.”
“I know it, madame.”
“Where will you go?”
“Alas! I don’t know.”
Madame de Fondege raised her handkerchief to her eyes as if to wipe a
furtive tear away, and then, almost roughly, she exclaimed: “I must tell
you the truth, my child. Listen to me. I see only two courses for you
to adopt. Either to ask the protection of some respectable family, or to
enter a convent. This is your only hope of safety.”
Mademoiselle Marguerite bowed her head, without replying. To learn the
plans which the General’s wife had formed she must let her disclose
them. However, the girl’s silence seemed to make Madame de Fondege
uncomfortable, and at last she resumed: “Is it possible that you think
of braving the perils of life alone? I cannot believe it! It would be
madness. Young, beautiful, and attractive as you are, it is impossible
for you to live unprotected. Even if you had sufficient strength of
character to lead a pure and honest life, the world would none the less
refuse you its esteem. Mere prejudice, you say? You are quite right; but
it is nevertheless true that a young girl who braves public opinion is
lost.”
It was easy to see by Madame de Fondege’s earnestness that she feared
Mademoiselle Marguerite would avail herself of this opportunity of
recovering her liberty. “What shall I do, then?” asked the girl.
“There is the convent.”
“But I love life.”
“Then ask the protection of some respectable family.”
“The idea of being in any one’s charge is disagreeable to me.”
Strange to say, Madame de Fondege did not protest, did not speak of her
own house. She was too proud for that. Having once offered hospitality,
she thought it would arouse suspicion if she insisted. So she contented
herself with enumerating the arguments for and against the two
propositions, remarking from time to time: “Come, you must decide! Don’t
wait until the last moment!”