The golden windmill, and other stories — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The golden windmill, and other stories
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He fixed his eyes upon the frock, and instantly I was aware that he was
strangely moved. At first an expression of surprise and bewilderment
crept over his face; then I observed a look of utter dejection and
remorse. He did not speak, and rather confusedly I went up to him and
touched him on the shoulder.
“I’m sorry,” I said. “Doubtless there is some story.... I ought not to
have....”
Instantly he patted my arm in return, and muttered:
“No, no. It’s all right, old boy. I will tell you. Only, not to-night.
No, not to-night.”
He stood up and took one or two turns up and down the room in silence. I
did not dare to intrude into the secret chamber of his memories. Suddenly
he turned to me, and putting his arm round my shoulder, he exclaimed:
“Old boy, come in to-morrow. Come to dinner. Bring the wife. Yes, you
must both come. Come to dinner at seven-thirty. And then—I will tell you
the story of that little white frock.”
It happened that a dance my wife had intended going to the following
night had fallen through. To my surprise, she jumped at Mr. Brancker’s
invitation. She said that she thought it would be extremely interesting.
I felt a little nervous at taking her. An invitation to dinner for the
first time is always a doubtful number. The social equation varies so
alarmingly and unexpectedly. My wife frequently dined at what she called
“smart” houses. How could old Brancker possibly manage a dinner in his
poky rooms? I warned her to wear her oldest and shabbiest, and to have a
sandwich before we started. Needless to say, my advice was ignored. She
appeared in a wonderful gown of pearl-gray. Experience told me it was
useless to protest, and I jogged along the street by her side in my tweed
suit. And then I had my second surprise. Old Brancker was in immaculate
evening-dress. Cunningly-modulated lights revealed a table glittering
with silver and glass. I mumbled some apology for my negligence, but
in his most courtly way he expressed his pleasure that I had treated
him with such friendly lack of ceremony, nevertheless this question of
dress—as so often happens—exercised a very definite effect upon my whole
evening. I felt a little out of it. My wife and old Brancker seemed to
belong to one world and I to another. Moreover, their conversation flowed
easily and naturally. The old actor was in his most brilliant mood, and
Alice sparkled and gurgled in response. Although she was younger and
Brancker older than I, I felt at times that I was the oldest of the
three, and that they were just children playing an absorbing game. And
the dinner was the third surprise.