But there was something in that house--not to be accounted for by mere
creature comforts--that made it easier to fight off the blue devils of
loneliness and took away a little of the reminder's stings when some
tantalizing shape appeared in his tobacco clouds. Every morning he was
awakened by her voice at the piano, a few minutes of scales and then
one song, always a true matin song, full of hope and the sheer joy of
living. In the evening she sang again, a little longer at scales and
another song, sometimes two. Then David's door would be set on a crack
and he would lean back in his chair, listening and thrilling with some
emotion as vague but as beautiful as a very good idea in ecclesiastical
architecture. Sometimes a film would come over his eyes; it is not
clear why, for when she sang he forgot to remember that he was a
failure, that he was in mourning for a love lately dead and that he had
become a mere drudge for money.
One evening when he had been under that roof for nearly three weeks she
did not stop with the second or even the third song. Ballads and arias
followed until she had sung steadily for more than an hour. Wondering,
David stole from his room and sat with the other roomers on the stairs,
listening raptly to the golden voice that floated up to them. And not
once did it falter or lose its pure timbre.
Silence fell at last. The other roomers, sighing, went back to their
rooms. David went down to the parlor.
The singer was still sitting before the piano, absent eyes fixed on the
open sheet of music; a happy but half-incredulous smile was playing
about her lips. It became a friendly welcoming smile when she saw him
at the door.
"Did you like my little concert?"
"Like it!" He used a gesture to explain that she had set too big a
task for his tongue.
Her cheeks made answer.
"Do you know," he asked abruptly, "that your voice is getting better
and stronger all the time?"
"I think so," she said quietly.
"Don't you think that maybe your throat is getting well?"
"I think so. But I can't be sure. It's too soon to tell yet. And
it's too good to be true."
"Oh, no!" he protested. "You mustn't say that. You mustn't _think_--"
He stopped with a curt laugh. "That's queer advice from me."
"But it's very good advice--for any one, I am sure." Her eyes had
become very grave. "And I shouldn't have said that, for it really
doesn't matter so much as it did once. You see, I was pretty cowardly
about it at first, when I found I couldn't depend on my voice. Because
I couldn't have all I wanted I wouldn't have anything at all. For two
years I wouldn't sing a note. The doctor says the long rest is what
gives me a chance now, but I don't deserve that. I made myself
foolishly unhappy. But it's different now. Even if I can't go back to
studying or ever hope to do big things, I know I can sing a little for
myself and get a great deal of happiness out of that."
It may be that her smile was a little too bright.