Now all the time O'Halloran was talking and singing, I had scarcely
heard a word that he said. Once I caught the general run of his
remarks, and said a few words to make him think I was attending; but my
thoughts soon wandered off, and I was quite unconscious that he was
talking rank treason. How do I know so much about it now, it may be
asked. To this I reply that after-circumstances gave me full
information about was said and sung. And of this the above will give a
general idea.
But my thoughts were on far other subjects than Fenianism. It was the
Lady of the Ice that filled my heart and my mind. Lost and found, and
lost again! With me it was nothing but--"O Nora! Nora! Wherefore art
thou, Nora?"--and all that sort of thing, you know.
Lost and found! Lost and found! A capital title for a sensation novel,
but a bad thing, my boy, to be ringing through a poor devil's brain.
Now, through my brain there rang that identical refrain, and nothing
else. And all my thoughts and words the melancholy burden bore of
never--never more. How could I enjoy the occasion? What was
conviviality to me, or I to conviviality? O'Halloran's words were
unheeded and unheard. While Nora was near, he used to seem a brilliant
being, but Nora was gone!
And why had she gone? Why had she been so cut up? I had said but
little, and my mistake had been hushed up by O'Halloran's laughter. Why
had she retired? And why, when I spoke to her of my love, had she
showed such extraordinary agitation? Was it--oh, was it that she too
loved, not wisely but too well? O Nora! Oh, my Lady of the Ice! Well
did you say it was a dreadful mistake! Oh, mistake--irreparable,
despairing! And could I never see her sweet face again?
By this, which is a pretty fair specimen of my thoughts, it will be
plainly seen that I was in a very agitated frame of mind, and still
clung as fondly and as frantically as ever to my one idea of the Lady
of the Ice.
One thing came amid my thoughts like a flash of light into darkness,
and that was that Jack, at least, was not crossing my path, nor was he
a dog in my manger; Miss O'Halloran might be his, but she was nothing
to me. Who Miss O'Halloran was, I now fully understood. It was Marion--
Marion with the sombre, sad face, and the piercing, lustrous eyes.
Well, be she who she might, she was no longer standing between Jack and
me. I could regain my lost friend at any rate, I could explain every
thing to him. I could easily anticipate the wild shrieks of laughter
with which he would greet my mistake, but that mattered not. I was
determined to hunt him up. All my late bitter feeling against him
vanished, and I began to feel a kind of longing for his great broad
brow, his boyish carelessness, his never-ending blunders. So at an
early hour I rose, and informed O'Halloran that I had an engagement at
eleven o'clock, and would have to start.
"It's sorry I am," said he, "but I won't deteen ye."
CHAPTER XXVI.