The Lady of the Ice: A Novel — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Lady of the Ice: A Novel
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O'Halloran himself joined in. He was gay, and genial, and jocose. At
about nine o'clock Marion came in. She seemed dull and distrait. She
gave me a cold hand, and then sat down in silence. She did not say any
thing whatever. She did not seem even to listen, but sat, with her head
leaning on her hand, like one whose thoughts are far away. Yet there
was a glory about her sad and melancholy beauty which could not but
arrest my gaze, and often and often I found my eyes wandering to that
face of loveliness. Twice--yes, three times--as my gaze thus wandered,
I found her eyes fixed upon me with a kind of eager scrutiny--a fixed
intensity which actually was startling to encounter. And strange,
vague, wild, unformed memories arose, and odd ideas, and fantastic
suspicions. Her face became thus like one of those which one sees in a
crowd hastily, and then loses, only to rack his brain in vain endeavors
to discover who the owner of the face might be. So it was with me as I
saw the dark face and the lustrous eyes of Marion.
And now, 'pon my life, I cannot say which, one of these two excited the
most of my admiration. There was Nora, with her good-nature, her wit,
her friendliness, her witchery, her grace, the sparkle of her eye, the
music of her laugh. But there, too, was Marion, whose eyes seemed to
pierce to my soul, as twice or thrice I caught their gaze, and whose
face seemed to have some weird influence over me, puzzling and
bewildering me by suggestions of another face, which I had seen before.
I was fascinated by Nora; I was in love with her; but by Marion I was
thrown under a spell.
On the whole, Nora seemed to me more sympathetic. With all her
brightness and joyousness, there was also a strange timidity, at times,
and shyness, and furtive glances. An occasional flush, also, gave her a
sweet confusion of manner, which heightened her charms. All these were
signs which I very naturally interpreted in my own favor. What else
should I do?
I have been calling her indiscriminately Miss O'Halloran and Nora. But
to her face I did not call her by any name. Nora, of course, was not to
be thought of. On the other hand, Miss O'Halloran seemed too distant
For the memory of our past experience made me feel very near to her,
and intimate. Had we not been together on a journey where hours create
the familiarities of years? Was not her life mine? In fact, I felt to
her as a man feels when he meets the old flame of his boyhood. She is
married, and has passed beyond him. But her new name is too cold, and
her old name may not be used. So he calls her nothing. He meets her as
a friend, but does not know how to name her.