The Lady of the Ice: A Novel — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Lady of the Ice: A Novel
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But, if this was to be done, I saw that it must be done quickly. Jack's
blood was up. He had declared that he would win her, and had departed
with this declaration. I knew him well enough to feel sure that his
action would be prompt. He was capable of any act of folly or of
desperation. If I could hope to contend successfully against him, it
would be necessary for me to be as foolish and as desperate. I must go
in for a headlong game. It was to be a regular steeple-chase. No
dilly-dallying--no shuffling--no coquetting--no wooing--but bold,
instant, and immediate action. And why not? Our intercourse on the ice
had been less than a day, but those hours were protracted singly to the
duration of years, and we had been forced into intimacy by the peril of
our path and the horror of our way. We were beaten together by the
tempest, rocked by the ice, we sank together in the wave, together we
crossed the tottering Ice-ridge--together we evaded the fall of
avalanches. Again and again, on that one unparalleled journey, she had
received her life from me. Was all this to count for nothing? This!
Why, this was every thing. What could her recollections of Jack be when
compared to her recollections of me? For one who came to her as I had
come there need be no delay. Enough to tell her what my feelings
were--to urge and implore her for immediate acceptance of my vows.
This was my fixed resolve; but when, where, and how? I could not go to
the house again for two days, and, during two days, Jack would have the
advantage. No doubt he would at once reply to that last letter of hers.
No doubt he would fling away every thought but the one thought of her.
No doubt he would write her a letter full of protestations of love, and
implore her, for the last time, to fly with him. He had done so before.
In his new mood he might do it again. The thought made ay blood run
cold. The more I dwelt upon it, the more confident I was that Jack
would do this.
And what could I do?
One of two ways could be adopted:
First, I might go there on the following day, and call on Miss
O'Halloran. Her father would be away.
And, secondly, I might write her a letter.
But neither of these plans seemed satisfactory. In the first place, I
did not feel altogether prepared to go and call on her for such a
purpose. It came on a fellow too suddenly. In the second place, a
letter did not seem to be the proper style of thing. The fact is, when
a fellow seeks a lady, he ought to do it face to face, if possible.
The more I thought of it, the more strongly I felt the absolute
necessity of waiting for those two days which should intervene before I
could go. Then I might go on a regular invitation. Then I might have an
additional opportunity of finding out her sentiments toward me. In
fact, I concluded to wait.
And so I waited.