The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories
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Meanwhile Eros and Psyche laboured with all their hearts and hands,
and made the rooms green with ivy, holly, and laurel. In the parlour,
beneath the cluster of mistletoe that hung from the ceiling, was
arranged a little platform, with a daïs, and an altar-table covered with
white samite. It was here that the marriage ceremony was to take place.
By mid-day of Christmas Eve all the preparations were complete, and the
two lovers were sitting together in the deep bay-window, half hidden by
the ample curtains, and head-over-ears in lovers' talk. They were big
with the charming self-importance that belongs to young people in
their condition. Love burned for them in the centre of all things--it
illumined, warmed, and perfumed the whole world. For them the great
earth turned more smoothly on her axis, and moved in a fairer orbit; the
setting sun sank splendidly amidst his clouds for their sake; for their
delight yonder rosy-cheeked boy ploughed his whistling way through the
snow, and the sleigh-bells jingled so merrily from the distant road. If
only Mortimer were there, their happiness would be complete. And now he
must arrive every moment, so Eros kept saying, looking out of the window
with confident expectation; but Psyche scarcely replied. Her soft
little hands were cold and tremulous, and the corners of her sweet lips
drooped as she thought of the secret that harboured in her breast. It
was the first secret she had ever kept from Eros. Oh that it might
resolve itself happily, and not--not as she now began to dread! For
evening was coming on apace, and their friend had not yet come. He did
not come, though he had promised that Death only should forestall him.
As minute after minute slipped by, Psyche felt an almost irresistible
impulse to snatch forth the letter from her bosom, where she had hidden
it, and give it to her lover, that he might share and perhaps cheer her
suspense. But she forebore; she was strong enough to suffer alone, and
she felt, though hardly admitting it even to herself, that Eros was not
so strong in that kind of strength as she. He would laugh at a blow from
a fist such as would knock her senseless, but the blows of mental pain
and disappointment he was but ill-fitted to endure. Thus thinking, the
gentle Psyche crushed her trouble down, and even strove to forget it,
or believe it unfounded and imaginary, if so she might answer her lover
cheerfully, and in no way cast a shadow upon his Christmas Eve. But
still that strange coldness crept at intervals through her veins, making
her hands and her voice vibrate.
"Why, it's quite dark already!" exclaimed Eros at length. "Surely the
man means to be here by supper-time? I wonder how near he is now."
"There may have been a delay. The snow is very deep, you know, in some
places. Perhaps he won't find it possible to get here before to-morrow."